seng geul gor ri da

what time is it? Summer time!

2008-05-18T14:54:00.002+08:00

walking up the hill with the clouds as her companions

strolling above her head

the wind running against her hair

like children rushing out to play

the music sings of summertime and sunshine

looking through the dimmed lenses of her sunglasses
still can't stop the friendly warmth,

she walks in steps in her own pace

the time is long forgotten

licking the dripping Melona from her fingertips

as she smiled to the jealous passerbys

this is Summertime,

yes, this is summertime.

just now was 6 minutes of shiokness, thanks.

"funeral" Hymns

2008-05-07T15:10:00.002+08:00

'There is Room in my Heart for Thee'

'Amazing Grace'

now 'Nearer, my God, to Thee.'

I really come to realise that my favorite hymns are those which you would most likely have played and sung on funeral service. Like those above...

I really wonder why we choose to only sing these wondrous hymns during funerals?

These hymns speak of why we go on living! Because Christ in with us, and how we should seek to be nearer to Him each day looking onward to the day we see Him face to face again, and what delight we would obtain, when we see the One who showed us such grace and mercy to sinners,

took sin upon himself, became sin for us, being a Perfect God.

Ive always loved the perspective of having the Heaven-perspective not the short-term perspective which realy has been part of my life to remind me in time to time of why we are here on earth for?

Yea I really am touched when I think of why God would do such a thing for a sinful ungrateful sinner I am. And I'm so thankful for Him drawing me nearer.

There is nothing I can do to obtain His Love, because it has been given freely, so I should not dwell on how sinful i am, on the things ive done to bring shame and shown disobedience to Him,

because God did not save us because of how good we are, what we've done, but because He chooses us, He has Graciously shown Himself to us, through His Beloved Son, Jesus who lived a perfect rightous and from a lowly birth and life ( which we would never been able to in this sinful world), and then on the cross of calvary died a death we deserved...

But it is all so easy to say and be thankful now, but when times comes when sin is all so tempting and The sinful nature of us overtakes, God be with me, and may Your still and gentle and wise voice prompt me.

I love the song, Thank You, Lord, when it speaks of how we have this human nature which overtakes our thoughts, and God's soft prompting can be easily ignored. Used to sing it a lot in primary school my favorite song heehee, but never could I understand the meaning of the words, when i realised how true it is so.

I Thank You Lord for bringing me to You, from this blindness of these sins in my life.

I truly Thank God for edifying truthful to his word, music, and language, the bible, and the honor of prayer....

that could help to bring me back closer to God

that we can understand ( just a tip of the iceberg) of His wondrous Love for us.

Now with the words of the Hymn, to remind us of God existance when the overwhelming world blinds us from Him in this world. To remind us God is everywhere. (: May you find peace in knowing that we will be truly Home one day.

This is my Father’s world,

and to my listening ears

All nature sings,

and round me rings the music of the spheres.

This is my Father’s world:

I rest me in the thought

Of rocks and trees, of skies and seas;

His hand the wonders wrought.

This is my Father’s world,

the birds their carols raise,

The morning light, the lily white,

declare their Maker’s praise.

This is my Father’s world:

He shines in all that’s fair;

In the rustling grass I hear Him pass;

He speaks to me everywhere.

This is my Father’s world.

O let me ne’er forget

That though the wrong seems oft so strong,

God is the ruler yet.

This is my Father’s world: the battle is not done:

Jesus Who died shall be satisfied,

And earth and Heav’n be one.

This is my Father’s world,

dreaming, I see His face.

I open my eyes, and in glad surprise cry,

“The Lord is in this place.”

This is my Father’s world,

from the shining courts above,

The Beloved One, His Only Son,

Came—a pledge of deathless love.
This is my Father’s world,

should my heart be ever sad?

The lord is King—let the heavens ring.

God reigns—let the earth be glad.

This is my Father’s world.

Now closer to Heaven bound,

For dear to God is the earth Christ trod.

No place but is holy ground.

This is my Father’s world.

I walk a desert lone.

In a bush ablaze to my wondering gaze

God makes His glory known.

This is my Father’s world,

a wanderer I may roam

Whate’er my lot, it matters not,

My heart is still at home.

There in my Father’s home, safe and at rest,There in my Savior’s love, perfectly blest;

Age after age to be, nearer my God to Thee. Nearer, my God, to Thee,Nearer to Thee!

full speed

2008-04-27T22:53:00.006+08:00

doodledddd what i wanna do.......

school is going in full speed
im still in rolling stone mode...

today i danced the 'boneless chicken dance'
it rocks my funny bone.

going to see my old friends oh glee!
get art stuff...meet old teachers so whee!

imnervous

why did she give me that weird look, so weird.

yea i have been very particular with anyone nowadays, i hate it i know, i cant stand it,

im so mean, so rude, so straightforward so unlike myself, or really?

argh. SHUTUP.you freak..:O

yah i wasnt capable of such words but now things are different... ermgh.

im so impatient with the people i love the most, which sucks. cut cut cut.//

dont feel like going anywhere... bleah. just do stuff...
and think....
and stuff....
몰라

time stand still...............

tues gonna kill me full force.
피건해~~~OTL

Genting Highlands???

how many friends do i have that would consider me

as their friend, im wondering, cause everyday seem

like a feat to go pass with such thought the hang inside my mind.

i lack diligence in friendship, i hate myself for that.

In God I should Trust.

trust

2008-04-21T01:23:00.003+08:00

mm yeah it's like God made it known to me my bad habits this year I'm very glad for that

so that i can for better. but I gotta maintain them,

being diligent, tidy, and not so distracted.

and now what BigJon told our Ammi group about the analogy of our pursue to be like Christ is like how as if we would want to be our favorite sportsman and we have to train , do the same exact things to achieve skills so that when we do whatever he does on court, we will not be just merely copying him, and not getting the same result as him, (if we dont train and etc.)

and we are to do our Qt Pray, etc. Cause that's what Jesus did as a perfect example for us on earth.

How oftentimes i feel so lacking

that im incapable of doing so,

it's so impossible i would think

but a thought suddenly appears in my mind

God doesnt demand perfection

but he demands our obedience..

because He knows none of us is perfect like Him

but why am i having wandering selfish or maybe justified thoughts

that are so caught inbetween the alright and not alright categories

like today for message, mmm, we are to trust in God for the future

but im so apprehensive

which is such a disturbing feeling

because I feel i'm moving towards my own wants

and dreams and my own planned out future for myself

which is ridiculous and nothing compared to

the soveign Plan of His which I yet to know and seek

I guess like what the discliples did when they were waiting for

Christ's instruction, to watch and pray, and dont be idling at the meantime

do something useful, build up talents for the Lord,

I'm suddenly feeling this sense of urgency to change my mindset in school

that is to do my best and stop spending so much time on the net

when my internet was not on, my mind was way clearer

thank God e showed to me this sin early, in one day how i waste the time God gave me graciously and it zoomed past so quickly when doing useless things..

though it was jumbled up in confusion when i can't find the fast and easy answers to things

like on search engines nowadays technology has simple provided us with the easy way out with

many things, we dont take time anymore to experience and find things out on our own,

it's a habit and i like it. which is bad in a sense im super lazy to do things the old-fashion

but good-ol-reliable way...which take effort hence the sloth mentality...

wanting to Glorify God but at the same time; most likely;

subconciously what is my real motive here?

I seek the Lord to show my true heart

what are my intentions beneath my thoughts and actions??

and to trust in God to provide?

He has indeed blessed me with abundance in my life

but i just fail to take time to comtemplate upon them

like using the time on the com doing rubbish to

be a more diligent student of His Word,

it's not easy, But God will provide, strength and perserverance i require..

In the parable of the soils in Matthew 13,

Jesus gives a description of the seed that landed among the thorns.
He said,

“this is the man who hears the word, and the worry of the world, and the deceitfulness of riches
choke the word, and it becomes unfruitful.”
We can become so caught up in our earthly worries (in our fears) that we can forget God’s word and become
unfruitful, inactive and unproductive.

how much ive sunken in I don't wanna lead a casual christian life.

even that want is from The Holy Spirit's prompting...

Lord please guide me back to the right path in my life,

show me my sins I've embraced so deeply that I myself is not aware of

May i once again read Psalm 27 and feel that comfort and joy i had as a new Christian

and may i not fear what is to come, but look onward to You.

stop the short-term perspective and put on the Heaven- perspective...

my heart's in heaven...

2008-04-19T02:46:00.002+08:00

warning: this post is very crazy stuff,
tribute to m2nc's favorite almost non-existant guy HAHA

i almost forgot about him, lol then i realise he is still
alive and existing on my friendster! shocker! and when he started using it again
haha i laughed hahah so i told him to
start talking to us again.. hahahaaaaa ( oh man)

remember that time hahah he came back to sg and
bbangchingu and cheon and massy n i went to pasir ris park lol and had lunch picnic
hahahahha, clara and nad not invited. and i took the sexyback photo and so many of you
comment here and there.. muahahaha. ( dunno if you rmbr )

HAHAHAHAAH, i think you forgot
that was ages ago, but yeah i know cheon missed him the most right... sad yea.
but he's like a brother to him...*wink (:

he is such a dork, thats why we love him...♥
(erm i dunno if the rest of you do, but i do- wheee :X)
i hope he can come back to Singapore soooon. likenow!
before my birthday LOL. then m2nc can go out too!~hinthint
aww..hahah!!!~ massssyyyy !!!!! (:
m2nc if you are reading this, go and read his friendster haha
he's back online haha, such a geek that guy,
like he's talking to himself, but he is still the same person
as ever.. why am i blogging about this strange person
because.. that's how bored i am...
I'm crazy now all thanks to myself.
Thanks for playing along with me chingus~
hahaha, so funny. the game will go on till' i get old and

really get married to ~~thomas.~~ HAHAHAHAHA

i miss him. ♥ MUAHAHAHA.

It's still so clear you standing right beside me your eyes ,

i still don't know i feel like you'll run to me

Your presence in my life

im not ready to erase them,

why does real love...why does love?...
become known after it's lost?

look at me once , i have something to say...

Come back to me...

i won't let you go again

there's so much i haven't done for you

i'll shout towards the sky that I miss you

Just in case my heart might be communicated to you

I love you... I love you...Can't you hear me?

I love you... I love you...Come back to me.

oh such emo-sweetness, my heart's in heaven..

web design!`~^^

2008-04-19T00:39:00.002+08:00

INTERNET CONNECTION
is finally on!!!! ahh!
*get the online party started! wheee!*
for more than a week my house's connection's been non-existant
pretty ok without internet though less convenient when i wanted to
do stuff online, research and etc,. and wow now i realised
how much im dependent on the net
to keep in contact with so many people. it like made me
detached from them when i can't get online
thats pretty alarming at the thought of how
my social life is much based online...aigoo~
but it was ok i definitely could concentrate on my school
much more haha, without the net, though i had
wondering thoughts of wanted to go online..
and check stuff. hahaa, i had unfinished business to do!
comments to reply, forum to go to
research to do, find info, lyrics haha~?

ah school just started and it was pretty fun ~ lol
well only cause only had few tutorials this week
but next week's gonna be more demanding for sure...
and i'm learning web designing (:
so im gonna make my own site from scratch next time
not only the design part of it but the scripting part and all
so fun!
hahaha!
learning XHTML now sorta different from what i usually
code so it's cool to learn the strict scripting now..

aigoo~~ must work hard
화이팅!!!~^^~

"Lord Jesus, God Heavenly Father..."
wow i didnt know you had it in you to address God this way.
how awesome. (: and how you express your gratefulness...~
~<3

man, it you are just...
it just adds on as i know more about you,
why can't i see more of your flaws?
im growing slowly, delusioned.

memories of you

2008-04-09T18:00:00.004+08:00

i lived for a long time without speaking,
it's like i've lost my strength to say anything...
as if i had gotten this disease that took away my voice.
Watching you silently, you who can not remember me, I, too,
lived slowly erasing you from my memories...

Like you who can not find your old self, I, too, lived
like i can't remember you.
Let this moment be not the reality....

you wouldn't know.
you wouldn't remember who i am.
the long time spent together and happy memories,
everything of us, will just be a total blank to you.

if only i can see your old self again,
even though i couldnt,
not even once would not be possible anymore...
because I am a stranger to you...

is reminiscing our love something in the distance, harder and harder to remember?
is recalling our memories something only possible in the past?
look into my eyes.
Can't you see the person you loved and who stayed together with you
for such a long time?
Can't you see?

i wonder if i can survive for just one day.
i know i probably couldn't.
i wonder if i can be fine for once. I, too,
like a person who does not remember anymore.
I am a stranger to you.

aspirations

2008-04-09T17:09:00.002+08:00

previously i never realised my aspiration of this passion grew so strong
that i even considered it for my future, my career?
but so many thoughts in my head stop me
but this passion, this deep want in my heart
Why do I love it so?
I just do, i can't explain it, it may be because of their life stories
though they all been through so much, suffered so much for their dream
I really wonder how they really feel,
if it mean sacrificing so much of their lives of it.
but i just love it, like how they do.
But is it really all that practical?
but, is it for other selfish reasons,
even though my intentions are purely my passion for this.
im so afraid i'll lose the passion to glorify God
I don't know if i went to do so,
i will still glorify Him.
Will the superficial world suck me in?
I know it's possible if i work hard at it,
it seems like the thing i want to do most
at this point of time in my life.
But nobody knows about it yet,
I'm not ready, though I'm eager.
I'm praying...

Someday I'l lay my love on you.

2008-04-09T14:20:00.005+08:00

I really wanna thank God for my memories.
even though their a part of my past,
it is still a part of me.

I especially think about my childhood,
things were just so simple and naive and craziness to its innocent sense.
love the time i spent in primary school, and my hello kitty club, oh and a1, thank you a1 (:
and the park friends, clara & francine and my neighbies,
and we always play DDR at francine's house and play Final Fantasy 8,
and how i love squall so badly hahaha, ok a bit.
and cycling everyday to find new parks in the area to avoid the
annoying boys in the park who shoot soccer balls at us as goals,
and bully the younger ones.

and i think about secondary school,
and people before me says its a great and really sweet time of your life.
and it is, well, when I think of secondary school now, i can't really remember
anything bitter actually, ( except studying till i died)
it seems to be fade to the background when compared
to the fun and lovely experiences we shared with friends
and the sweetest friendship you find.
it's quite sad how i neglected my dear friend in sec1 & 2 , im still so
sorry about it, i cant believe was so selfish,
well i learn my lesson, and she forgave me
and i love the teachers, they rock my school ankle socks.(wwooot)
they are so motherly and so funny to laugh at.

and sec1, 2 and the funny lit lessons lol mrs muthu, lOL vanessa never water her plant for
her LOL and how robean and her alwasy fights in class, hahhaa, and ms jam yall, she rocks coolest f&n teacher ever hahahah...how she protected us from ankle band skirts. HAHAHA

love lit class when we wrote poems every week ( love poetry)
and prose was always interesting, and Mrs D tan always had
those funny expressions when she tells us stuff.
and she appreciated everyone's poems, hahaha
even those super funny ones. and her expressions about the
ah lians in school who makes a racket every 2nd lit lesson of the week

ad Mrs Lim's awesome mommy baking,
cupcakes, real big cakes, brownies, lollipops, sweets
( all sneaked from the p.e. board ) HAHAHAHAHAH!!!
and mini white boards as answering quizzes,
makes me feel like one of those ppl on game shows
on tele. LOL. and the letter writing for 4J (:

and Ms teh's super fun art classes,
expression paint splashing banner,
she modelling for us to do gesture drawings
students outside giggling at her,
she teasing me and beating my arm very hard "meerisssaa ahh"
when she sees me
haha, and her adored nephew and her iced-milo stash
in her secret fridge in her secret art storage room
and animal biscuits HAHAH
and art outings rocked, singapore river, theif's market etc.

and chinese lesson where we dread really
LOL. and i always struggling to talk to teacher
hahah or read the passage, and she overheard me singing in
chinese she went " wah Shi Hui, ni hui chang hua wen ge ah?"
and the whole class will go " lao shi, shi HUI SHi, bu shi, SHI HUi"
HAHAAH, and annabellybutton's "pillow" and how she blatantly
show lao shi and ask her if she can go toilet HAHAHAHAH

oh man and the cockroach incident haha, she's so cheeky we found
a real cockroach in the toilet but it was somehow petrified
left it on the sink faucet and wait for people's expressions HAHAHAH
and shan's cumscums language dunno whats that... HAHAH but it was hilarous
and she & cheryl and the bio PPP people tellingme to sing 'one' for them
just that line that goes, " someday i'll lay my love on you, babay i dont wanna lose you now"
LOL it was hilarous.

and how clara and i studied on History paper day suppose to study , yet we laughed and sang
the whole 3 hours to study and i went in knowing only about th long March and it came out
for source base, LOL and my essay was a story book story. i think they enjoyed it much.
or moderated badly, cause i passed with my ss HAHA

yes SS, LOL who can forget that SS!
ahahhaha her black face when she enter classs every lesson, her umchio face when clara & annabel compliments or makes her laugh LOL... it was da bomb

and i miss band too, how we were so tired yet we went for every practice and yes we sometimes dread the 1 hours long warm-ups that made our lips hurt and makde us breath fast hahaha
and the wanna die feeling of teaching the younger juniors,
playing the morning call everywhere. LOL
and the sec4s rocked together. the dancing, and the crazy things we did, shagimadanov
i miss him. yes i rmbr how i saw him that day at the tea time concert ,
he was such an awesome musician, and so rebellous, lol.loved how he wore his uniform
so young, so so so young, but yet... and may he rest in peace ): well.
i chased after him and all at the passing out parade
( im so dumb)
and i love the feeling of playing when the band has a round and pure and rich sound, it was like
estasy, if i knew what they felt like, it must have beat that. and how i had to play the bass trombone with my zoozoo tablet girl (: and then had to play trombone 1 and kill myself on those high notes, and tt chorloh wanna k=die everytime she plays wrongly but i know she tried her best (:
and in sec1 i played trombone 2 hahahaha i miss trombone.
and how i had rights to the cool DM cupboard hahaha cause im dm muahhaha,
and like get really headache when ppl borrowed instruments and anyhow sign,
hahhaha, n going for other school's concerts and laughing and shouting for names.
shouting at the sec1s during drills was fun but painful
hahaha
man, on & on
and all the relief teachers, ahahaha so fun.. HAhahha...

and 4J just rocks my socks, such a diverse personality class, but in the end it was all great, despite the cliques and problems in class, we still were a greeat class & i love you guys
yah and chingu telling me a joke a day thinkin of it made me laughed so hard, lol,
and annabelly button and vanessaP's antics in assembly oh man, hilarous

and how i sang with a combine classes, jaimama's awesome guitar maple LOL, rehearsals for it was super duper fun too. for teachers day, and Mrs D. Tan cried lol when we did a encore for her in the teacher's room.

and i miss graduation,
it was soooo nostalgic,
it was just perfect to me,
the teacher were so great to plan the whole thing
ahahah how M2Nc we rushed from the hotel to the venue hotel
AHAHh in heels, hahahah and it was gonna rain
hahah all the lovely dresss on the lovely girls who usually
dont dress like girls , erm hahah (: so pretty
and the after party was awesome HAHAH
laughing at mos people getting wasted, went to 7-11 in dresses and make-up at midnight
haha then again at 2 with PJs hahah same cashier.
and walking at singapore river and playing 31 on the rainbow bridge making a lot of noise
andhow naddy couldnt do a funny 1,2,3 singing AHAHHA but we laughed super laughed nonetheless, naddy is unknowingly funny, and clara's rap , and mandy just laugh at us, very smart ah! hahaha, and... 14, and 15~~~~*singing to you know i love you*
and playing PS in the room, hahahaha and dancing to balloons, muahahah,
and the lovely lyrics book chingu gave us (: haha i sang the whole night even till you all
slept and those (red) yellow and silver balloons hahaha... and watch the sunlight seeping through the windows. LOL, you guys rock!!~ YA!

ok if i were to say more ill die.
i can write a chronicles of m tee's secondary school life.
hahah ( but i shant)
but thanks to bbang chingu's blog entry yea i had to write this

so thank God for bringing me through these 4 precious years
and for education and for friends and fun, and memories....

wardrobe

2008-04-08T02:25:00.002+08:00

thanks to jojo-oppa & dad for fixing up the new wardrobe, now the real war begins

its so late my head is splittin with a headache, cause lack to sleep.

and im gonna bathe and sleep now,

thinkin of how i have wasted my time on other things, and not train my skills
on the programs for 2nd year. and im anxious to knw who my new classmates are.
it's pretty much freakin me out, much.

but yet, im downloadin audition to play tmr, why?

im dumb.

and she wll be ♥-ed.

talk

2008-04-07T01:39:00.005+08:00

just had nice talks with my twinster (;

miss talkin to her though i feel im a selfish talker

and i talk way to much rather than listen,

sorry!

yeah gotta fix that thing about me.

but im glad i get to talk to twinster.

Thank God for Him.

and His love for us. (:

It's as simple as that, but so hard to comprehend!

http://www.quizbox.com/personality (many random quizzes) quite fun, rather true, somewhat.

CULTURE FREAK,

2008-04-04T22:14:00.004+08:00

Are people who embrace other cultures weak?
do they have no roots?
do they have issues with their identity?
does that mean if we're english we only can write our name in english,
if we're chinese, our favorite food must be chinese food,
if we're not korean we can't love the korean language?
If we're not japanese we can't dress like the japanese?
Singaporean culture is whacked,
it's a fusion of so many cultures, we lack our own, or so we create our own
why can't we embarace other cultures without having to be thought of as
someone who is weak in our own identity?
So don't write your english name, oh yah you dont have one,no wonder.

You are weak if our don't embrace other cultures,
you're old-fashion and you're so narrowminded.

giving birth to us youths in Singapore, having to live with people of so many different races,
exposed to foreign media and their country's culture,
we are confused, we dont live out our old roots,
most chinese even forgot their chinese name and
it's your fault, it's Singapore.
Live with it.

and even so, it's school ,
what in the world has that gotta link to something personal,
you can't keep your thoughts to yourself?
i never asked for you opinion in the first place,
is there a correct answer to your question? mmm sir?

but my dad is right, as christians, im glad i didnt talk back to him
Thank God.
I gotta agree to disagree, whatever that means.
I wasnt raised to talk back, that's my culture,
oh wait but chinese people are rude,
so where's that whacked culture of yours now?
i can't stand talking about it.
I shant continue to feed this hatred before i entertain this sin...
Oh God help me.
I wanna go run or punch something now. argh! ):
not good.

<3유정
대한민국!!!!!!!!!!!!

and i dont know what to do, cause i'm...

2008-04-03T18:11:00.003+08:00

nobody reads my blog except dearie, so i gotta go crazy. ( love you dearie)

just read the book finish day before, i dont read books, if i do i never finish them
sorry not a book-reading person, but this time i put myself to it, nd well God's will that i
got strangely and suddenly took ill, yea so i got time to sit down/ erm lie down and finish it, well i sorta rushed through it in my opinion, but i read it nonetheless,
well, i hope i can rmbr those things he wrote, and things he pointed out from the bible.
I really hope i can do those things for him. mmm, somehow just like so many of my closest friends,

we are just in this whole mind game that taken overour hearts, way too many hearts,
the truth is, 난 널 좋아해진짜!muaahahaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! AH!
it's scary to read her entry and saw how i was just not so long ago, it scares me how deep ive fallen then. it creeps me out, but we always have this mentality of IF ONLY, "there's a possiblilty", "when we do.", "when i....",

i can say much about her for she knows not what she's gotten into, her whole...sigh* but i know now,

i hope i will not see him again, well make sure he doesnt sit next to me when we're eating, but i think i want to. but when i do ~그그그그 HAHAHA. i'll laugh so hard and just die.
but he was so funny yesterday night, so annoying, but so funny, i cant stand him when he gave me that face. scream.
im such a freak.
we girls are such dorks,
those guys are just unknowingly jerks.

Paris

2008-03-31T14:10:00.003+08:00

쌉싸리와요!!~

파리에 여행을 가고싶어요 !! 진짜!~ㅠㅠ

but now all i can thinkabout is being sick,

urgh, have been aching or ages and yest was ultimate.

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2008-03-24T09:50:00.002+08:00

Romans 8:18, For I reckon that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory which shall be revealed in us.

such an encouraging verse, to remind us not to brode over things in the past,
things in this very present to hold us back from moving forward and look onward to the greatest
glory we shall see,

IN CHRIST ALONE my hope is found,He is my light, my strength, my song;
This Cornerstone, this solid Ground,
Firm through the fiercest drought and storm.
What heights of love, what depths of peace,
When fears are stilled, when strivings cease!
My Comforter, my All in All,
Here in the love of Christ I stand.

Psalm 46:1
God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble.

alone

2008-03-23T23:13:00.003+08:00

i'm pretty depressed now,

my problems probe my head in a mess but subtle pain

sometimes i feel friends dont exist. especially now.

no one is my true friend...everyone is fake.

the people who seem to have the most friends,

dont...

he loves everyone or so he tries.

but no one loves him back personally

that feeling hurts...

He has so many friends but no one considered as the one or group of friends

he can run to when there are problems

someone to encourage you when youre down.

Not just to laugh with.

and all he has is Jesus to cry to.

For no one beats Jesus who is

the greatest Love anyone can have.

He is my all.

He is my refuge and strength

no matter how much my friends on earth

pretend to love me, pretend to be my friends

i feel no one really does know true friendship

other than Jesus.

He is a God who befriends me,

a wretched sinner in nature

and gives me assurance for perfect Heavenly reunion with my God.

Thank you God for Easter

Thank you God for Jesus Christ

Thank you God for being Love.

focus

2008-03-23T19:22:00.005+08:00

are you my focus?
is God my focus?

but by Him being my focus,
I try to care for others, to get chances to encourage you all.
but you all just think and leave it as "i dont know anything","I dont understand you"
maybe i want to know you more so i can care?

Eph 5: 4 Neither filthiness, nor foolish talking, nor jesting, which are not convenient: (not fitting/out of place) but rather giving of thanks.

giving thanks to the Lord, encouragement outside of yf is so rare nowadays,
but youthful lust lurk in abundance...

how badly ive sin an continue to sin, and will sin...
But I'll try, God help me, but will you?
I want my words to be filled with Thanksgiving to Our Gracious God.
I want our lips be filled with kindness...

Heb 1 0:24-25And let us consider one another to provoke unto love and to good works: 25Not forsaking the assembling of ourselves together, as the manner of some is; but exhorting one another: and so much the more, as ye see the day approaching.

i hope i will stop using my own strength to do so, things turn bad when i do.

2008-03-21T22:20:00.003+08:00

someone please stop this little boy.....

3/21/2008
8:40:20 PM

emollient.
HELLO
I LOVE YOU TOO

she
??????????????????????

emollient.
" I love you. <3...hneh">

emollient.
let me take you away

she
WHAT you totally ignore the name infront eh

emollient.
to the clouds

emollient.

where we'll be at home

emollient.
and we will never be apart once again

emollient.
we will be one

emollient.
heh? what name? :P

she

hello its for Sungha

she
haha

emollient.
nono. sungha actually codename for

emollient.
ME

emollient
D:

she
EH

she
no

she

wrong girl la ibob

she
haha

emollient.
no

emollient.
we will never be wrong together

she
:-O

she
scandelous eh you

emollient.

no

emollient.
i just love you

emollient.
how can that be scandalous

emollient.
with you i can be myself

she
:-O

she
what

she
im gonna copy this convo and put on my blog

emollient.
LOL

emollient.
okay

emollient.
i also

she
huh

emollient.
i also love you la.

emollient.
your not alone

she
WHAT

she
dont anyhow can

emollient.
i know your love for me is unconditional

she
i already got husband everything

she
:-O

emollient.
and you think i don't love you

emollient.
you got husband?

emollient.
who
emollient.
i go kill now.

emollient.
O:

she
:-O

she
my brother already broke his legs

.....

she
husand 's name is Thomas

she
Joetee broke Thomas's legs

she
yahh

emollient.
okay lor

emollient.
like that

emollient.
i dam sad now

emollient.
you make me very sad

emollient.
your the reason for why i emo

she
hneh

she
hahah

emollient.
no joke

emollient.
O:

she
:-O

she
I LOVE THOMAS

she
:-O

she
sorry to tell you thetruth but its the truth so yeah
she
you gotta accept it

emollient.
no

emollient.
!!!!
emollient.
no!!

emollient.
Merissa...Merissa( phantom of the opera tune )

she
??

she
haha

I love Dearie back!~

2008-03-20T16:37:00.003+08:00

bleah, yeah did my Qt today,

which is a good start for the day,

so much youll not do for God when you dont start your day right..

well really have to see yourself from a third person's point of view.

but with that in mind, i will not do so many things i wanna do...

i dont know but it's just rather bothering

to see yourself like that.

and time we use, likevery thing we do , to stop and think,

is this a good use of the time God gave me?

very troublesome indeedbut things just seem better when it's to our own liberty and

sinful nature to take over.

so i guess,

im feeling better... not so emo

yea

hahaha.

watched Horton that day it was hilarous. hahahaha laughed so hard, lol nat and nik was like laughing and explaining why they laughed LOL yes while watching..too bad only 6 people could make it. like 3 bishanites lol and 3 gardeners (3 guys, 3 girls) lol funny.

and then day be4 yest watched 10,000 bc with NANA, lol. it was ok i guess, the main actor will definately not win any awards with his acting skills, maybe he was caveman so...no emotions? ahh, haha, but storyline ok i guess, a bit touching esp when they were lil' kids, and why would a young by like him have such sentimental/romantic abilities? and when they ..erm watch to fin out hahahah... funny. but dont watch it if you dont have to. seriously.....

Dearie! you're so funny!~ I love you too!!~~ <3
i didnt know youll go to the extend of that post HAHAH!!~<3
I LOVE YOU TOO!!~~^^
i laughed so hard when i saw your post! LOL!! youre so sweet please.

feelin poetic again

2008-03-17T02:10:00.003+08:00

i think im emo-ing. God forbid.

why do you come and haunt me again and again with your non-existance?

why let these careless thoughts breed?

until my sinful heart decreed?

youre pressence-

deep

deepen

weep.

why do i hate it when you didnt do anything

when it was time i thought would made me forget

wireless realtionships corner upon it's brief acknowledge,

i hope the bells ring for you or so it goes,

thanks mom, by that small comment, you flatter me so

but how i know, i know to know

what you speak are lie, are lies,

because you love me so.

but often times, the lust of the flesh; covetousness

strangles me in my own blood

to see the flood oh to feel the surge

Lord help me to in you to trust to trust to trust

but why do they seem so similar in the the way

i faint i faint i faint.

and it breaks it breaks for them

for me to do what i told him so.

i just want to live aimlessly, lying here in this grass of stones

but i know i have not this pride to live how i want to

to waste it all...

in this midst of aimless possibilities

in my own very own ....mellow...emotions.

aha

2008-03-05T02:25:00.004+08:00

I went to the Zoo first time in years and the Night Safari since never ever. (: it was fun with NANA, (: i found a new love for Giraffes and i was so bummed out i didnt get to see a cheetah ):

The night Sarafi was nice, the trail ride was cool, the show was super entertaining, and the trek in the forest in the dark with the REAL wolves howling was rather creepy, ok, very!

and it rained so it was damp and cold and dark and the paths sometimes seem strangely misty..

ahah..and most animals were not active after the rain so they hid or sat around, except the beavers and some otters which were adorably acting out a scene in a romantic drama or something LOL. long story...~

But i was trying to embrace and enjoy God's creation, i somehow find it super easy to praise like White tigers and stuff and like cringe at Bats and strange noisy creatures...it's bad but i tried to, but well we humans are the worst of the sort. We kill and endanger and make animals extinct! it's saddening to know many beautiful animals are hunted for leisure, for their skin, tusk etc. i mean come'on, it's just cruel. ok i admit i must have contributed someway or another to it's depletion by adding on the the high demand for wood, paper etc. and many animals lose their habitats, what to take home from this? God made man dominant over creatures and fouls of the air and sea and land, but dont hate them all too much, but adore how Great God's creations are..4Rs, reuse reduce recycle and replant! (:

randomquizzables.

1.Name one person who made you laugh last night? junniesshi
2. What were you doing at 0800?sleeping~
3.What were you doing 30 minutes ago?listening to music
4.What happened to you in 2006?I was 16!
5. What was the last thing you said out loud?"hahaha, so funny~^^"
6. How many beverages did you have today?erm, water, water, yakult, erm..nothing else.
7.What colour is your hair brush?erm i need to get one..
8.What was the last thing you paid for?Dearie's birthday pressie~<3>

idols

2008-02-23T14:05:00.004+08:00

Idols,

i have blatant idols and i am blinded by them. I see the truth behind it and someone once said about newyork's society and culture and their idols that shocked him more than the idols people openly pray to like in the temples etc.. Because they are hidden beneath each one of us, we love them more than we love God, but we do not know them.

But what they call, "passion"... such a gray area i live upon.

Is passion for other things other than God's things ok?

i mean the answer may be obvious for few. mm sure, as long as you put God first.

or no, nothing are we suppose to be passionate about, unless it Glorifies Him...

The hobbies and such we have and love doing;

The movies, tv, we watch, the music we love listening to, the clothes we wear, the food we eat,

the friends and family we love, the thoughts we have everyday, the fantasies we yearn to live out, the goals we want to reach in work or school. The blantant but blinded sins are covered by our earthly passion for our secret is unknown to ourselves most of the time.

( but we can just enjoy doing it, right?)

But such energy; passion to be used to glorify God...

What i reflected to my friends that night was shameful to God's Holy and Righteous Name,

I had to have someone else point out my problem with idolatry.. and it was the most shameful thing to have someone find it for you...but that's God's plan isn't it show you and to have to suffer for it. For God is a Just God and has to punish sin, but i fee it might them brought more shame to Him than myself. Why we are so deaf to the Holy spirit's prompting and guidance?

Even though they might not see it as 'sinful' for they know not what sin is, but.

I know for myself, what it really stands for... and i'm totally disguested at the best testimony i've shown to them. whatever degree it might have stood as. I'm glad it just started to grow and is quickly made known to me.

Thank you God for showing my sins to me, sorry for taking your wondrous love for granted and being a ever sinning sinner, Father forgive me, even though I don't deserve it. Help me to sin-less, and reflect Jesus's light to the people around me, rather than a stumbling darkness in people's eyes.

1 Cor 5:17 says "Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new."

are we a new creature in Christ?

I<3운동

2008-02-21T19:02:00.005+08:00

운동 만세!!!~~와하하하!

난 나가 운동했기 때문에 행복한 오늘이다!!~와 상쾌한!~ㅋㅋㅋ!!유정야~화이팅!!~준수야!~화이팅!!!~^^??와하하하

yes today I have accomplished something great!~

gotta love the pesp.

longway people. nearer....no lies.

excerxisseeeeesjsjsjsjssssuuu

2008-02-20T23:36:00.004+08:00

아자!아자!화이팅!!~

네!!~ 할수 있어!!~

the day i boldly say : i<3 운동, will be the day i accomplished something greay muahah
(sorry i scribbled on the picture too much in the doodling mood)

get a head start today~ wow should have done my portfolio but noooo..

argh, anyhoo was in the mood today, hopefully for the rest of the year too!

lol but routinely, i wanna get it in my blood....pumping pumping.

if only i wasnt so tired from school today, then i could do more.

argh after ive stoppd going for trainings i became disgustingly weak; hate that, even stretching is painful,

much more than the training i did, have to get back to that...

but i could only do for 2 hrs just now, hahah, did lotsa skipping, jogging, Squats, lunges, calf raises, triceps dips pushups, swims and bicycle crunches...some nearly killed my muscles. gotta try doing more repetitions lol tried doing each for a each of my fav 4 minutes songs hahah... then i got distracted after that and went to dance?? sorry much. but it's good too, hahhahaa

as u-know-who once said, "cardiovascular exercises are important people, please do"

mauhaha he's so funny, suddenly saying that in that commercial tone, silly guy

downside of camps is gotta eat their food, i dont wanna how? ahah
gonna plan ahead i guesssss....LOL.

gonna go full force during holidays lol,, if i have the time??

2008-02-19T11:38:00.004+08:00

:O abbys

:O leggings

:O dancable movements

:O singular proportion

:O unbashful sports

:Ospark

:o mission?

:o zipzipzipy fits!

목표: 내생일에 65 6일에 60

possible? with God strength.

sea, dee

2008-02-18T15:12:00.002+08:00

sea-dee

(: ahhh went cycling with all the group members of NANA, good full strength.

wow it was great enjoy the ever summer breeze.

smell it; the clear blue skies within the wind.

sweet~

lovely~

Beautiful ocean bright, just you and I, In your eyes, I can feel heavenly paradise.

don't be afraid of what you feel inside, that's ok you don't have to cry yourself

I'll give you word , only one love, you know no one can make one happy as the way you are,

that's the true love, as always I'm here this is our world

sat at the big rock and did stupid things with our music.

lol...took lotsa photos which hardly any turned out good lol.

how can Nana do it alone, better ask our manager how are we ever gonna survive

i recorded some of my singles already but they have not yet so i'm still waiting for them...

yes our packages arrived in the mail 2 days ago. for me and for huda, it rocked my socks super much, i scream when i saw which was mine, so cool please. and today when i gave huda her package she scream with me and both of us laughed soooo hard, AHHH, man, quite dramatic results has occurred she concluded we are going to have that future 부와하하하하하하하하하하하~~ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ!!!!!!!

yes, random thought of the day: " my eyelids are wonky, they are suddenly very doubled?"

tough but important thought of the day...~"teenager teenager do your hours you spend each day count for God?"

2008-02-09T01:42:00.000+08:00

새해 복 많이 받으십시오!

whee~ happy Cheena New Year ya'll!

i meant chinese new year, uhhuhh...

*gulp i enjoyed cny yupp wen to eat at both gramma's , but today my family found ourselves with awfully painful stomach aches. like mine was so bad i woke up and couldnt open up the eno cap. lol.. and each of us had different symptoms of food poisoning.. *bleah.

i puked yeah many times. urgh. and as a result i couldnt go for class outing to visit classmates' homes. so sad!! ): rahhrrr...i wanna!

but it''s so cute. hahah at night bought lotsa campbell soups and i cooked for my korkors (:

an di think they felt much better (: chicken soup and such really helps (: makes you warm and comfortable. (heehee, i love the feeling of caring for someone sickish...)

but yes, God is also telling me i should spend more time with him and not to put glory to myself, i felt lke my sickness is a punishment from God, truly cause of how i spent my time the night before. i can just see it coming..

it made me submit to God for He is in control or everything everyone, even our health.

mmm and yeah and lives...

how often we forget that and think we own our own lives and neglect God's power over us?

mmm i ve blogged so little recnetly school work and all piling up. studio proj coming soon!~~^^

I'm talking more and more like a Singaporean. lol... horz?

alright gonna meet M2Nc tmr~~사랑하는 친구들~~^-^

(oh yeah gonna put up my plans for sem break!~ lotsa stuff i wanna accomplish,.. yes with God's strength of course and the help of my family to revamp my room! ) ahaha. sofa beds please.. ikea here i come!

lies

2008-01-20T19:22:00.000+08:00

왜?!

내 마음에...

당신은 왜 내 마음에 있는가 인다?..........

것지말???

나의 정서는 가짜 있다??

i laugh it my own idolism; myself, other. so much so much.

wanting so much is so common for me

i wonder what am i doing these things for?

but im still setting this goal, but the feeling is still input

*because he is doing so, so i will do it too....*

mmm is that not right? it is an encouragement mmm inspiration?

mmm someone to look to to reach my goal?

mmm we'll see.. no need for expensive items to help me, pure discipline..

will i pray for strength from God?

or just work on my own strength?

will i become worst at the state i am working for?

i cant forget.

no.. your face

it embosses a deep imprint in my mind

it's abstract relation causes imaginations to reign,

except i know it's not reality to begin with

but it feeds itself to growth, the more i yearn for

the more i pretend it will happen in the future

someday i think,

you dont even understand or can react to,

perhaps i will fit my future basis on ? waha.

mmm

don't really understand, maybe.

all i can say and think sometimes is

어떢해 어떢해어 떢해-어-떢-해??!!~

2008

2008-01-07T09:49:00.000+08:00

yeah, it's been long since ive blogged,
mmm just not really finding time to blog about things as a whole.
mm finding myself back again perhaps,
i still enjoy being another person as i would,
but sometimes maybe it's nudging in me,
that it would not be glorifying to God.
But in another person, a better person, killing off my old self
but how to change it in itself?
mmm takes time i guess, but it's part of me,
i dont think a lil will hurt.
maybe a lil' ? no overdose, i promise

and i cant help but have that "sec 1 mentality" when it comes to those creatures
esp when hahaha... mmm
but mmm yes... can't help this sin.

i guess i gotta reach out more,
since i have those that I love and I want to see going to Heaven...
and those who i dont know, that needs God too which is everyone.
Life isnt about how you can do your best, really
though we must try, but not with our own strength, really
i mean how can we humans full of flaws and faults do anything with our own strength?
guess i gotto share God's love with them,
I must not be selfish...

I must not be lazy,do my school work do my best get better GPA, yikes,

Cleaniness is next to Godliness,
somehow i know that it is just good to be neat and tidy like Leans,
wow i wanna just dump everything off seeing her house and her room.
LOL, how strange
But my messiness is next to my artsy-ness.

LIST?
Gotta try to read the whole bible in about a yr or two...
Time management
keep my space neat and tidy and clean
Drink lotsa water till im full
Sleep when i can
go for yf every week, since
i already made this commitment and sacrificed.
Go join yfers for fris or fb when i can
~~Not to think about Ths. too much ( HAHAHA...oh man hard one.)~~
not let the internet be my god.
share the Great news
love God and others more than myself
be an encouragement to younger ones n others
be a better daugther to nae appa&omma,
better yeodongseng to nae oppas

Jesus

2007-12-11T12:56:00.000+08:00

Who is Jesus?

IN CHEMISTRY, HE TURNED WATER TO WINE.
IN BIOLOGY, HE WAS BORN WITHOUT THE NORMAL CONCEPTION;
IN PHYSICS, HE DISAPPROVED THE LAW OF GRAVITY WHEN HE ASCENDED INTO HEAVEN;
IN ECONOMICS, HE DISAPPROVED THE LAW OF DIMINISHING RETURN BY FEEDING 5000 MEN WITH TWO FISHES & 5 LOAVES OF BREAD;
IN MEDICINE, HE CURED THE SICK AND THE BLIND WITHOUT ADMINISTERING A SINGLE DOSE OF DRUGS,
IN HISTORY, HE IS THE BEGINNING AND THE END; IN GOVERNMENT, HE SAID THAT HE SHALL BE CALLED WONDERFUL COUNSELOR, PRINCE OF PEACE; IN RELIGION, HE SAID NO ONE COMES TO THE FATHER EXCEPT THROUGH HIM; SO. WHO IS HE?

HE IS JESUS! JOIN ME AND LET'S CELEBRATE HIM; HE IS W ORTHY . THE EYES BEHOLDING THIS MESSAGE SHALL NOT BEHOLD EVIL
THE HAND THAT WILL SEND THIS MESSAGE TO EVERYBODY SHALL NOT LABOR IN VAIN, AND THE MOUTH SAYING AMEN TO THIS PRAYER SHALL SMILE FOREVER. REMAIN IN GOD AND SEEK HIS FACE ALWAYS. AMEN IN GOD I'VE FOUND EVERYTHING!

The Greatest Man in History Jesus had no servants, yet they called Him Master.

Had no degree, yet they called Him Teacher.

Had no medicines, yet they called Him Healer.

He had no army, yet kings feared Him.

He won no military battles, yet He conquered the world.

He committed no crime, yet they crucified Him.

He was buried in a tomb, yet He lives today.

I feel honored to serve such a Leader who loves us! If you believe in God and in Jesus.

happy birthday darlings

2007-12-08T12:43:00.000+08:00

happy birthday darlings!~

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i cant believe i went to the canteen entrance it was out of bound so I sat down on the floor right that the walkway and awaiting,

i saw him walking out of the toilet, and walking pass me, he was wearing the black and red outfit, (ah they must be preparing having abreak now), i suddenly blurted out.." Hi, Y____!~" and he turned around a bit shocked but still looked at me, and then waved and said " heh, hillo~" with a wide smile and hestitated a lil but walked on, with face reflecting his mind full of thought...

then i continued waiting outside, alone..

it was a while then all of them walked out if i remembered correctly, and Y_____ saw me first and picked me up and smiled at me kindly and they walked on together.

and i was in a daze ,he was so kind-hearted... and suprisingly. ~~he looked good. :X~~

and from that day onwards we all became really really good friends. how awesome is that?

rahhrr what happened to .....? man,

m'sia

2007-11-23T22:25:00.000+08:00

네~ i'm going to KL tomorrow morning...

going to see my milkyboy, misses

won't be back till Sunday ,dont know what time...

Pray for me...Thank you...

2007-11-19T06:11:00.001+08:00

i could almost taste it and now it might just be gone , im gonna reason it out,
but how? God is so powerful and sovereign over me, even though i have decisions, God always comes out there with His way and I'm in such a dilemna again why at this day? why?
i'm pretty bummed out and upset at the thought im nervous and anticipating for the answer, but i already know it, just dont wanna follow it. what will the consequences become? will thy understand? will my priorities be set straight, but its so diffcult, why God? sometimes i wonder, why this day? It's to teach me something some times i wanna ignore wanna not learn, just this once please, its too good to be true, it's once in a lifetime, i wanna both, i wanna, rest without having to think of it, its not easy , but im not a lone, although i force myself to be in this decisions, i wann ajst quit everything, everthing clashes everything lies in a dilemma within me, why? i ask WHY?

crazy stuff

2007-11-19T04:30:00.000+08:00

2007-11-18T00:03:00.000+08:00

storyteller14 youtube

2007-10-09T01:01:00.000+08:00

wow,

im just inspired to the core,

today i found myself in tears when i watched StoryTeller14 on youtube,

like how this iron cross found in the ruins of 911 point many who mourned to Christ,

His first video has just blown me in the right direction, given me a wake-up call

to stop my sick worldly ramblings, *man, i wanna buy that checked red and black shirt*

mann i want this! boy, i would die to have that.

and to think... some other kid out there is suffering, is naked, is starving, is abused, is literally DYING?

but i mean its ok to enjoy the blessings God gives to us on earth now, but to put it as the top thing in our life to enjoy all our earthly blessings is just bad to put our whole life mind,heart into yearning those "stuff"--

I could just shake myself hard, when he reminded me of my sin. It's amazing how God uses someone in such an unexpected medium, (youtube? ) to work in me.

and God just let me have a nice look at myself, how sinful ive been these few days ok my whole life practically...

but just most recently, ive been having those dreams, fantasies, and complaints worries destructive habits and what have yous and have forgotten the most important things in my life.

That provoked some thought in what things we ought to spend my little brain space storing and creating new Godly ideas to help more to love more, instead of other wasteful, sometimes sinful, hurtful, hateful, selfish thoughts/ideas.

Just this Sunday, i was telling Leans how much i ought to love others more than myself,

and how i've been so selfish lately, and arrogant and proud ( the list goes on...)

and how i've been so unChrist-like. And instead of doing something abt it,

i completely submerged myself in youtube funny videos and meaningless ramblings of other people and making my own useless meaningless videos of my own, ( its ok to laugh and enjoy humour) but you see,

until i found his videos and his meaningful videos that compared to those long hours i watched those other videos, those other hours were just wasted; rubbish, and the thing that made me love the videos and caught my attention is that God truly was magnified in his video, i felt i was closer to God; to Jesus as he reminded me of His love for people on this earth, people who don't deserve anything, especially any of His wondrous love, compassion, mercy and grace and Salvation...

I just cried just then, because I realised how foolish I've been that i could forget that in my daily life, in attempt to pursue my worldly desires and trends, to wanna be like that someone on tv in the movies magazine..that is on blah blah blah...

But so delusional was I that it blinds me of who that someone i should be actually yearn to be more alike is Jesus Christ.

God sent His Son, through His lowly miracalous birth in a manger and lived a Godly and righteous perfect sinless life, ministering to the people, all people, whatever their nationality, race, age, whatever, sick or healthy poor, weak, whatever, He cared so much for us, and died on the cross and shed His precious blood that we might actually have Salvation, might actually have eternal life in heaven with Him..and may we share this great news to others too those who have not even heard about God at all.

and so many times i forget that Jesus once said to treat others like myself. and how we can actually show our love for God through loving our brothers and sisters (friends) as well..

and to care for everyone in this world, our families, our friends, our neighbours, our church, our neighbourhood, our country, our earth and world too. But all this is impossible without Christ who strengtheneth me. Without whom I will not be able to do anything,

I am duly reminded this Sunday when we sang this song, i cant remember the tune or how it really goes but it's something about Every single action of concern and care every thought of love, every work of compassion is all from God, and without Him we are just sin-prone sinners with our human nature to want to disobey God to do what i want cause i like it, to do everything for MYSELF and maybe just maybe those i fancy, or i give a chance cause i like it.

How we forget it so often.

May this be like breath and a constant thought in our minds to do these things in our daily lives.

It's a great challenge but I have to do it...and I'm so glad, i'm meeting some of guys for lunch tmr , im so gonna share this with them, hope it will be an encouragement and a reminder. how we should love others how Christ loves us.(:

1 John 4:7-12
Beloved, let us love one another: for love is of God; and every one that loveth is born of God, and knoweth God.

He that loveth not knoweth not God; for God is love.

In this was manifested the love of God toward us, because that God sent his only begotten Son into the world, that we might live through him.

Herein is love, not that we loved God, but that he loved us, and sent his Son [to be] the propitiation for our sins.

Beloved, if God so loved us, we ought also to love one another.
¶
No man hath seen God at any time. If we love one another, God dwelleth in us, and his love is perfected in us.

May God Bless you. ~<3>

upset

2007-09-27T15:25:00.000+08:00

"what the FREAK is that?" you might ask me...
youll never guess , like im so prepared to one day take this 'thing' and create a masterpiece (not exactly but).. ........jjIANGjjiang~!!!~(sarcastic remarks are meaningless)

I'm so upset about it,
argh, but people makes mistakes, even stepping on my precious (not cheap)canvas!! and creating this! "thing" as seen in the picture.
i tell you i was sooo mad...(the angry-mad not crazy-mad, although i was almost reaching that point)...but i gotta keep my anger in.

*inner scream* mmmmmmmm!!

corrinne may plays on my playlist and im soo much more calm now (:
Thank God for soothing music...
Thank God for helping me hold my anger in.........

(but im still upset a lil')

lol i influenced another person to like Secret! (: heehee, after my brother's fanatic signs were showing, i made natee lol like it so much lol she.. she.. cr*** and bought the vcd HAHHAH! (: good going. you can tell a sentimental person by watching a movie with them or making them watch it.. lol. (: go Jay! :O

gotta dance this off.... SERIOUS MASS ROOM CLEANUP!!!~
let bygones be bygones....

muscles

2007-09-23T23:27:00.000+08:00

LOL.

he is one kind of a

shocking, didnt know he was that sort.

motivation,

tomorrow's training.

LOL...looking forward,... i think..

(:

2007-09-21T20:42:00.000+08:00

Thank God for He forgives the Vilest Sinner- like me.

( picture for Chingu (: heehee)

lol read his blog, so cute (: he should blog more often, natsha saw the pic of him looking uber funny-cute ,we both laughed the moment she saw it when i switched on my hp lol... LOL. " cause he likes it...."i said

:O what?!

mann from tomorrow onwards i'm gonna have trainings as usual again ,but im not fully recovered but i have to if not ill kill myself. both ways..
mmm

i so desperately wanna sing out loud.. but i cant.*sigh*
in His time to heal me... gotta be patient.... shows how God is in control and not me.
and my talents are not mine, but God-given gifts that i must use for Him...

):

and recently ive been having difficulties differenciating my dreams and reality, i thought i called him, but actually i didnt ...i think.. i dontknow anymore... huh.
so sorry if i didnt do what i promised or like something, cause i did it in my dream and thought i did it, ok it's as bad a reason as "my dog ate my homework" but it's true! (:

and should i continue my classes? but my chingu not going so soon,
so ill be studying on my own?
*oh no!*
so lonely and scary. im so dependent on chingu. ):
but i gotta move on too... and face my fears to learn more!!!
*pray hard* ahh.. 친구아~나는 정만정만진짜진짜너무 보고싶어요!!~~

looking forward to next week with you all (:
anyeong-lotsalove from Yoojeong

saranghae do dwe gga yo?

2007-09-20T22:04:00.000+08:00

드라마를 볼거에요!~
*드라마는 볼거에요:
---빌릴 거에요~
1.파리의 연인
2.1リットルの涙

---있어요~
3.가을동화 나의
방을 청소하십시오~
너무 더러운!!~~ 어떻게``
한국어
캠브리치학교 RYAN 통화번호가 육삼삼육에사사오육 이에요.

lol.. so nice bought new stuff today with twinsa.
(: such a funny day.. i saw disGustin& then Jason lol.
mann today i saw so many other people wearing the sunglasses i bought AHhh!
oh man..

口口..

안념-유정

sick!

2007-09-17T11:30:00.000+08:00

Sick please, im sick...did a rough grafitti on facebook ( join facebook!)

well i thank God that im feeling much better after rest and that i didnt go for physical this morning, i might has made it worst.

man itslike suddenly i woke up yesterday with a stuck inner-dry throat , sick. i was feelin ok, but just sick inside.

but thanks Gerald for introducing Woods to me, i dont think i bought the thing you told me to but it had a different texture tt you explained to me previously. But nevertheless, this morning i woke up better, and it's usually rest and sleep that i lack and fall ill.

And 단니옐 for asking me if im sick and blaming me for drinking his cup of water. LOL. THANKS.

I wanna sing, i have to everyday, but i cant cause of my bad throat, it's mild torture but argh.

OTL!

mmm... i dont know.

whether im gonna go study with grammie later, i might make him sick! ):
but he's such a sweetie! :o

time destroys.not heal

2007-09-13T02:11:00.001+08:00

blog's finally done. a bit of problems here and there but nothing a lil fixing can do.

sigh* feelin so upset suddenly..

why am i feelin so much regret and feelings of envy and pettiness, o i can just torture myself with my shortcomings. When will i come into reality and accept the truth.

mmm. i dont know what to say right now to

but i know i gotta do something,

it just doesnt feel right,---at all.

when will i cultivate the kingdom-perspective.? man

but why so clashy. rawrr. selfishness. jealously, wrath.

emptiness engulfed in my bitterness.

always thought i could hold on to it.

always thought will last.

without a word;

it's falling out

you might think i dont care,

but i do,

just that i didnt know why a little time lapse would

do such harm

i truly cherish you

i really hope God will put the right words in my mouth,

humble words with a humble spirit

loving words with a loving heart

i dont know whats the use anymore to think i know something

because it is not the becoming,,

it became a past.

those that you held dear, just dissipates slowly but

in a twinkling of an eye,

it poofs, without myself knowing.

to think i can be replaced.

to think ,

i wasnt true

friend

dissapointment.

dismay

fulfilled right before my eyes.

the next thing i know...

ill be erased from your memories.

covered by their footsteps

i always felt apart when youre together

thought things would work out for the better
but i guess....

time doesnt heal sometimes
it destroys.

SITE UNDER CONSTRUCTION

2007-09-11T12:34:00.000+08:00

my blog has been weirded out for a while n decided to remake the whole layout. so ill be back to fix it! in construction!!~ (: after i come home tonight (:

--yoojeong

heac

2007-09-05T22:26:00.000+08:00

i'm so sorry but i love you...da geojitmal...

bleah... went to print final piece and remount it.. (seriously not the best quality either)
and went to pass it up and went for training.
seriously pushed myself hard, so much so i out run people made some goals-woot and yeayea the after effects came, went home witha big headache, tried to sleep it off, couldnt went to eat, anf i felt so much better lol. yay, Thank God. for giving me such strength and perserverance....

Sigh sometimes i feel like the more talents God give me the more burdened ill get cause i gotta use them all for his glory, gonna used em' and God is always on my side and blessed me so richly with talents, but tt only means i gotta use em'.. and the more often ill be tempted to b proud of myself of the talents i have, but its a struggle continously; my whole life ive been so blessed , in every part of my life and im able to do soo much so easily.in arts, sports ( last thing i thought i would excel in) ... (en even in school work) i always pass but i never put in effort...but i guess God tries me with my laziness and my pride and my shyness(lol realy) and my oh so many demerits...it sorta levels it out i guess. God is a fair God, and i gotta embrace it. gotta let God use me as an instrument for him....

i dont know what im typing about... not thinkig straight... mmm...
i think my holis will be totally studying & FloorB, 3 times a week. shiok.
no play again. ): pout*
OH going to watch movie tmr! (: hehehehe... yay~ haengbokhehyo~~~

I'ma FUNKHIPHOPPOPLOCKROBOT~ really.a'ite

danceobsession:o

GOGO

2007-09-03T18:08:00.000+08:00

really thank God for the great turnout at the Outreach last sat, and everyone enjoyed themselves (: Pray that theyll come for the next one... (: which is important....

watched hairspray with natsha yest. super make you wanna just dance, mmm i did, but i hope i didnt blockanyone behind me, mmm. JUSTTT kidddin... not.

soo much fun with twinsa. and im sure the aunties next to us sure enjoyed themselves head bopping fun, sureeeis.

and oh man, i just so happened to chanced upon this dynamic duo, with a little nightmare music... hahah..

all their youtube vids are hilarous.. and rather ingenious~

oh man , Joo(the korean) lol is hilarous really skilful pianist and the other guy with such a long surname, erm. But his nerdy character just made me laughed till i seriously fell, okay he's uber funny oh man. Igudesman & Joo hahah ..

go to youtube to view some of their performances lol. the "Mozart Bond" and "Rachamaninov had Big hands" was really interesting, he was saying Rachamaninov had BIG hands, and because he's a korean, he has small hands lol... so they improvised. hahaha.the "piano lesson" was taekwondolicious LOL... but super violent LOL. OH MAN the nerd student is HILAROUS.~

okay school holid is here but i have many work to do, seriously. anyong~

~<3yoojeong

hHAH

2007-08-27T14:33:00.000+08:00

can't believe im gonna play for school and for outreach, i need to practice my shots,nice slap shot will be good.(:

---uber stressed...................

If we have God’s Word in our mind, He can put the right words in our mouth.

may i say the right words...

------------------------------

studioproj+portfolio+DEAD-line(pun intended)=freaking out~
oh God may i have faith in your strength whom strengtheneth me.

greeneyedmonster

2007-08-22T17:59:00.000+08:00

i gotta kill my green eyed monster........
(a spontanous 1 min sketch)

I'm not the easiest person to love,
yet You choose to be on the side of me.

so much struggles, how much complains fills me,
i just wanna close my eyes and enter a hiatus of nothingness,
floating on pigments of colouration,
just torn to air,
but that's exactly how i lose myself

how much i must remember..
Never let today’s burden erase God's blessings of yesterday.

im always forgetting to do my best in everything for God's glory,
how much a regret each wastage of precious seconds He blessed me with
i feel im doing slightly beter, mmm, just from this moment onwards i guess..

cleaned my room floor. what a miracle its not that i dont wanna clean it up just tt im always caught up doing the so many more important things the millions of urgent responsibilities and burdens i spend so much time broding on them, and not making time.. it least im aware of it now.

and how ~~music~~ the right music, helps you to concentrate on the right things,
on God on your work, priorities....

i cant control my sloth monster, gotta overtake that after the green-eyed monster.
and let the self-lessness love sink in.....Let's Go yoojeong! AJAH.

IM VERY JOYFUL FOR D. I REALLY PRAY FOR HER ACCEPTANCE....

??

2007-08-19T21:05:00.000+08:00

mmm 계속 장시간이다~.....here goes.

well, really thank Jesus Christ for breaking this w a l l between sinners like me and such a Holy God like Him. mm and well im in an overly emotional state recently and well over guilt of making someone worry for me and added to his problems by my stupid mistakes and i was super upset. but i finally prayed and pleaded and well he was so forgiving and well i just poured out all my problems ive kept for this hiatus whereby i've seem to forgotten God in my daily life, how often ive neglected God in my decisions and how i've been clinging to my own frail-strength in all this business i've attended to argh that's literally given me no time to take a breather. yeah really thank God for being there for me and being merciful and i pray that He'll be Soveign over my life.
and im really glad for my brothers and im glad to have a family and parents, they are loving and i just have to realise that. even though at times they get on my nerves. But yeah, i have to be grateful for God's Blessings (: 나는 가족을 사랑해요~

& im glad that today could concentrate and worship God at service cause just had one straight thinking ..(although some person had to turn ard and smile at me and distract me.lol..tsktsk) and have Yd and ger to pray for me and i pray for her(: and it's really encouraging (: and had fun to prepare for Outreach (: It's really coming along! (:

Prayer requests:
-Outreach to be prepared smoothly and to God's Glory.
-My juggling with schoolwork n church responsibilities (: love both just end up playing the com or something else.
- train up for polite (stressing)

-i love SECRET! (went on my list of movies i'll watch again!)
going to practice the piano piece (:
erm... need to start work tmr. ok ill sleep early then! (:

annyoung!~<3yoojeong

OTL

2007-08-10T23:20:00.000+08:00

and i thought in high school i was busy....

outreachstuff, schoolworkstuff, fbmatches, classgathering, kayclass, HSclassgathering, i can suffocate................. jinjahyo!~ jeongmal pigonheh yo.~ahhh... OTL

_so full. stuffed from suki today. argh~

mann i wanna stay at home.wanna breathe the air for once and not rushing to do something, what a breather. i think i could have died from last to this week... and its goonna continue...

OTL *sonsengnim taught us tt only Jimin & i understands (: hheehee.. BiMil!!~

mann i wanna live in my own dream world forever.(okok how about 1 week) in idyllic slumber. but why do i dream of such, that worries me even in my sleep.

and argh i wanna live in a drama since im so busy like how 2 weeks are 2 episodes in drama-time. but things just seem so much more jimiseoyo.

there isnt even a break for a week before studioproj.

im lazy to upload. annyeong!~<3yoojeong

shoot

2007-08-05T23:27:00.000+08:00

(FUNFUN...such temporal fun..)

what a freaky-stress mode i am in now....

wow how much i feel like (the movie i watched today) to travel in time and go to the future.

skip tues lol.

mann.. matches this week like try-outs for school team again. this time not captain choice but coach in a friendly match enviroment. i dont know a big part of me tells me to just quit school team and maybe the whole CCA and concentrate on my other school work and church and my walk with God but it doesnt have any negative impact on my spiritual life ... i guess.eotoke?

but i think im just afraid of playing against other school's senior team... *dread..* im super unconfident of myself. i feel so inadequate being in the team of such good players....

and well i got myself out of tmr's match but i need to go for tues and ill see how it goes... God's will be done, May God guide me and the circumstances may be for me...*sigh

stress ah. stress... this week was supposed to be relaxed and a short break before studio project starts again. geureona....waeyo? but im seriously lookin forward to weds so happening xiah: birthdays, movie(s), class gathering, pizza, friends," wahh happening"... from morning to night to the next day wow.. i need to cook on thurs lol.. potluck for out-comm or i dont know. lol thinking of making Bibimbap or something..kimchi chigae meogoshipeoyo..~~ but no time to go to the supermarket to get groceries... mmm ...shigan obseoyo...eotoke?!

T.T (lol. never used this smiley made it up) looks cute lol. -^^- ( random...mianhae...)

well pray for me guys.. mmm.. stress ? mollayo??~

not in the mood to type all this in hanguel. mmm, that's when you live in Singapore.

ok how about a lil bit ...

SHOOT YOU DOWN, MISTER.

나을, 너는 아래로 쏘십시오!!BOOM

fftt

2007-08-04T13:31:00.000+08:00

the sin of loving that person a lot, the sin of loving you a lot
because of you, and because of sin, im sick of waiting
the sin of loving you more, the sin of missing you a lot
because of you, and because of sin, im crying with pain..like this

애프티 아이라드 정말 촣아요!~
지난 밤에, 나는 그들의 노래를 전체적인 밤 경청했다.....
ffttt*
너무나 많이 사랑한죄 널 너무나 많이 사랑한죄난 너로인해 그 죄로 인해 기다림을 앓고 있다고내가 더 많이 사랑한죄 널 너무나 많이 그리워한 죄난 너로 인해 그 죄로인해 눈물로 앓고 있다고 이렇게...
진짜 촣아요!~

too bright when you walk into the dim lit room.

2007-07-31T00:28:00.000+08:00

too bright when you walk into this dim lit room.

보고십어요...청말 보고십어요....

Only when you go through trials do you realise your need to depend on the Lord.
I've led such a wonderful no-fuss life so much so that i tend to take it for granted,
but now when i see people argue, fight, show such anger, do i wanna remind myself never to be like them, and pray that their tension will cease.. i mean anger is such a common sin in my life, i admit it, but now when i see it from the viewer's point of view i see how useless and stumbling such a display of one's anger can be...and things; minute in life, like pursuits of fantasies, just seem so unnecessary and so much less important like how it should be prioritised...
yeah i agree that family indeed is so important, rain or shine they should be the ones behind you cheering you on, praying for you, showing care and concern for each other instead of ourselves... sometimes i feel so much that i have the burden of being the center person, the youngest in my fmily and all my oppas...and everyone just tells me about this problem abt this person and the person tells me about that person. and what am i to say but to be in the middle and pray that God will guide me and grant me wisdom that i lack so...

and to really experience that the love of money is indeed the root of evil.. wow first time in my life i actually feel that i wanna go work, like it's not just the age or "time" but always afraid of the unknown, to be independent and earn my own money, but i just had this feeling of wanting to go out and work and give back money to my parents, like i should. like my dad said, i mean we as children shouldnt be worry or upset if our parents are not helping us financially but just knowing we are not burdening them to earn for us, we should be caring more about that than the latter... but now all i can do is take money from them... and well should Thank God for my blessing to be in school and studying something i see doing in my future, not specifically but as a boarder sense, ifit's inb God's will...Be it in Singapore or Korea or Canada or wherever.... and not to hold my material possessions like my life. like cry if i lose my favorite shirt he drew or the locket... after all the things of this earth rust/rot and moths gather but only treasures in Heaven are kept for eternity....
although im such a sentimental person if i were to lose a material possesion i hold dear ill just freak out, but even in tt scenario may God help me see in truth that it is not as important as so many other things as well...

i want so much for studio project to come... i mean it will be difficult... but the feeling of working on one project is so much more rewarding in a sense tt you put all your attention on it...and i wanna study my hard hard for theK test too.. Suddenly it is not something just for leisure but something i can use in life! mmm.. so important now....

and im in a hot spot, if i do what i wana do , am i glorifying God or am i creating strife? nad i standing up for God or for what i think is true?

유정 아!...all you can do...빌어요!!~ i'm holding back the tears...

~<3안녕...

sweets

2007-07-28T23:28:00.000+08:00

sweets...

so sweettt rahrr. (:
why is he so far away right now? have to go away for so long?

You're a falling star, You're the get away car.

You're the line in the sand when I go too far.

You're the swimming pool, on an August day.

And you're the perfect thing to say.

And you play you're coy, but it's kinda cute.

Ah, When you smile at me you know exactly what you do.

Baby don't pretend, that you don't know it's true.

Cause you can see it when I look at you.

And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times

It's you, it's you, You make me sing.

You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.

You're a carousel, you're a wishing well,

And you light me up, when you ring my bell.

You're a mystery, you're from outer space,

You're every minute of my everyday.

And I can't believe, that you're my man,

And I get to kiss you baby just because I can.

Whatever comes our way, ah we'll see it through,

And you know that's what our love can do.

So, La, La, La, La, La, La, LaSo, La, La, La, La, La, La, La, La, La, La, La

Llalalallalal!!!!!~~ Cant wait.. ahah.. what suprise awaits me on 9 aug. woott...

insulted

2007-07-25T10:00:00.000+08:00

sickly yest. bleah, it was my fatique that caused it, i guess...almost had my dizzy spells in school and felt like puking...

woke up feelin so much better. and( 3kg lighter lol.) That's why im not attending training today, anyway there's one on sat too, argh. *otoke?!otoke!?!!

but why do i have to wake up to be insulted mostly every other day?

but i just walked away before i sin badly again to talk back or to say sarcastic words.

argh, im gonna reach my target, hopefully, but im getting so lazy recently, cause it has been so difficult and straining. ~~feel like quitting~~geuman dugo shipeoyo....

mmm.. well, i put myself into this committment that God allowed me to have and I gonna do my best for God if it's in His will that i do continue these few things... AJAH AJAH!~

need to clean up my room!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! rhrrr!!~

oh yay, im totally cure of the disease! (: yaye, but it may strike back, i dont know when, its all up to God, reminding me to stay close to Him, and depend on Him... and not on my appearances....though its hard..mmm..

tkeshig

2007-07-24T21:18:00.001+08:00

(love his grinds and esp air tricks. argh. love the viking flip and eito's california roll. )

AHHH.. watched the rebroadcast of Asian X-games in S.H. wowee. Just switched the channel n it was the start of the finals for my fav(woot!please) AILvert. "shiok"

my my my... so much air rahrr... i love the double flat spins they did, it was solid, seriously was.

i was screaming my lungs out for takeshi as usual, lol, (: 춯아요!!~~

lol and the married eito is getting a lil' rusty or is just missed out on 2nd by the very good skater, what's his name? sorry.... no really.

his second run was i know to himself disappointing cause he fell..argh.. 1080s woot. he's one mad fella. cute fella. 1440 next year?

hahaha!! SCREAMM.. so wanna watch him skte live. agh.lol!!~

he threw his elbow pad lol!! "someone's going home with one sweaty elbow pad... "

LOL. scream. hahahahaha!!!~오진짜요!!~~\

gotta stop my childish girly shreeechhing. (: im gonna go read his blog now (: GASP!

mmmmmmmmm....

WORK? AHH no dont want. not feelin well, wanna sleeppp..

If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling.I would sing to you and tell you I won’t live my life without you.

jinjjah

2007-07-22T22:50:00.001+08:00

MY LOVELY...is in the weird chinese campus contest!? (: oh MAN. feels weird saying tt.... hahahah.... why did his friends signed him up??.. lol. madness, he's living a low profile life in school why share him with the world. LOL. now he thinks he's all that in school now... hahahhaaaa.. hilarous. oh well, vote for him. if you DARE. ahahha. no you can't anymore cause i pursuaded him to quit the contest for me and he did. hahah so sweet eh.... dont approach or look at him in school, or youll get it from me. nahh, he dyed his hair back to black, cause i said he looks better with black short hair...so you'll never find him...( im crazy laughing now!!!) nevermind, he stil walks me to tutorials and lectures. so im contented . HAHAHAHHAH!!! and he reminds me everyday, he doesnt care what every body says and dont listen girl to their jealous remarks. *cant stand him, he's like from some fairytale or melo-drama.. cant believe he's real. (lol.) well huda understands our situation, she herself has faced such problems in school... why cant people just leave us alone?? (oh well. lol)

argh ~~i love him...~~ *GASP!!LOL. ... ㅋㅋㅋㅋ!~ 아! 포옹하고 싶어요!!~~ one of the few motivations to go to school... (HAHHA...)

argh had great meeting today. (:
however argh my stupid right calf muscles, ~~i hate you,~~ HAHAH. suppose to train for the school marathon, but no...... i think i wont go for it in the end... need to work on my assignments, argh, bad deadlines, ok thank God for givin me the strength to even do any work. mmmm.... nervous....
no la must be more thankful like how in YD iv learnt today (: Thank God i have legs! and limbs to walk and run and dance and what have you...
im gettin sickly too. mmm..*cough, * HALUUU CAAAALLLAA...~~~~
*
TIBIALIS ANTERIOR ..BOO. hahahah.. so painful cant even concentrate on my run.
well pray for me guys, i need to make it alive this and next week....!!!~~~

God is Good.

2007-07-21T21:26:00.000+08:00

God really kept my daily life smooth-sailing...like so many situations...
so many i'll only mention one maybe.. like today, of all days of being early for trainings, argh i had to be late today.... when the coach came first time for sch team trainings. argh. so i just ran faster to make up the rounds. but also God kept me from any major injuries wow i was so annoyed at my perpectual injuries every week, yaye.and i improved on my shots. (: mmmm well, but what will happen in the next weeks or so, is a big thing, so whichever outcome it is, i will definatey accept it, its a both-positive situation i guess.. although i want both... mmmmm...
God's Will yeah?and i got pass presentation this mon! woot! i shook like mad, only ningsi saw lol. but i shook like a willow in the wind. (lol) but all was good! Just needed to praise God for His awesomeness.. (:

Please pray for me and my tight schedule and responsibilities... school's assignment deadlines all next week or the week after! and i have deadline for the outreach stuff! mmmm.. and i need to train myself for the matches in Aug.. need strength and time-management....

(milkboy will be accompanying me<3 )hahaahha!!!

i need to clean up my room ( n mantain it..agh)

ahh...나는 몹시 지쳤다!!!~~ 자고 싶어요!~bleahh...
annyoung~<3>

concert

2007-07-18T12:09:00.000+08:00

LOL..milk and cookies (: not literally hahahh....

God's plan for me to go to the SYF presentation. (:

it was super good... like the standard has really rose.. a whole lot, every time i go for such concerts it will make me feel like i should have DSA-ed hahaha.. argh oh well...

but anyhoo... so many things i should do today yet im not lookin forward to start those errands and work... sigh... lol.

buti made to go home myself hahha.. my milkyboy lol having some practice...sigghh!`~

(HAHAHAH!!) hope he's not so busy today... hahahaha....but you still gotta love that guy.

(lol ningsi, cheryl knows) hahahaha

it seems i have less and less time to thing abt the more important subjects in life.... but im following min's example. (:

see you ..love ya (: ~<3>

dilemma not so much....

2007-07-15T22:43:00.000+08:00

no match this tues, wow, my worries are put to rest abt this dilemma! (: wow, God really answers prayers seriously.. wow... it's amazing how God is so Great!! If i depend on Him on things and circumstances i can't control... (: so much work to do please, have presentation tmr, lol.. as my class would say BHB presentation.. lol. (: today Junieee lol.loves. super sweet he taught me how to sing the song so ill sing well tmr. i love hims voice..... (: <3 HAHAHAHAH!! if only he'll walk me to school more often...LOLOLOL!~ahjinjahyo.. lol... ok.. back to work. AJAH YOOJEONG!~

dilemma

2007-07-15T02:26:00.000+08:00

dilemma

ive been thinking... floorball에 해요? or 컨섵투에 가요? ahh..mannn.... totally forgot abt it la.

but i think ill skip the band concert? its of s-yf best bands.mmm....but its friendly match.... captain really wants us to be there....mmm... howhowhow nownownow

my wallet's GONE, someone took it. argh. pray for me and that girl who took it that she'll be honest enough to send it to the office. mm.. ergh. but Thank God that ive seen how good friends i have (: thanks for your care and concern guys, like evn when i hurt my feet muscle(annoyin please) or fell when drillin, like people care, you ok and such, i mean i should be more like them too (:

and its seriously embarassin that the male's team coach stopped the game and told everyone to check their bags for mygolden wallet what the mary poppins , please. 옷덕에~??!!??

but anyway training was fun today although i had to perservere my injury for 3 and a half hours, lol. we played basketball after that (: can't play, don't know how to, thanks.

ok... i need to do some stuff now! (:

-annyoung ~<3yoojeong

love you reader (: muacks. (eh?)

heehee J, your drawing said "LIPS...LOVE"?? LOL... (: sick. hahah.maybe 색시........

summerdream

2007-07-13T04:33:00.000+08:00

one word to describe :

summerdream=HOT.

as in both 덥게~섹시해. :X can't believe what im saying, but it is.

*OOPS, only 지민 친구 will know what im typing 하하하!~ HORRIBLE!!!~ TSK MYSELF.

but why that color? well...dont quite fancy it but it was the hot colour of fire.??! hehnhenhneh??

i fell asleep for 6 hours just now, and i need to do my work now. lol

but was super lethargic, but after that moment of getting 'high'(GASP)

im going to bathe and do my work.

why am i typing this uninteresting details in my mind's schedule?

must be 삼머니림!~i feel thirsty after that...

oh wow yesterday it was like a worked out at the gym the whole day cause' i was lifting my two loads, my laptop on one hand and my wacom tablet with my other stuff, supersuper heavy, and like the whole day at school, back home up hill lol. okay la, but super heavy la. (: im so weak bleah... nvm..준이 will help me. HAHHAHAAH.please. no la . ~~I LOVE YOU THOMAS..~~

????? oh man i need rest. ...

gonna drink loadsa water and do my work,.

TANKS= are indeed for fishes....미~히~어~이~LOL!!!

such a monkey you are.

OOKKOKOK.. gotta go before i totally lose my sanity...

--GOING DANCING SOON.

harry potter and the OFTP

2007-07-11T22:31:00.000+08:00

watched harry potter and the OFTP today.. even before the opening date tmr! lol..

with cool ppl, hahaha.. some yfers (:

well, it was funny and fun to watch, tear-jerking at parts, partially beccause i'm easily emotional...

lol.. kept telling elsa n elys funny comments hahah! CHO. lol....super funny.

argh was very upset at the flashbacks from harry's memory, how disturbing, i though i won't have to dwell over cedric's death. *sob...eh like have to see it over 10 times, rahrr, and one very vivid one, come' on man.

lol. watched the dvd from cheryl, its super bad quality, sorry but its true haha. so i hardly watched the 4th movie so it didnt count, so skipping one and forgetting the first three well, made me rather confused at times, needed to remember the characters lol.. but why cedric blea... sob* lol my pri school friends would testify that im a mad cedric lover then hahah. super funny, how embarassing, but robert didnt turn out exactly as i imagined cedric would be, mmm.. i expected him slight more buffed up, cause' he's an all-rounder, and great in sport, haha. oh well. mmmm. interesting visuals, but the rest said it was choppy, yeah i guess it hard to fit a super thick book's every aspect into a 2hr plus movie...but anyway wizardry and witchcraft is evil. lol. no matter which side you're on, there is always a dark part of it. GASP!! the death of that person was soo... sudden like cedric's although didnt feel as upset compared to the latter.

BANGBANG: very nice part i love the characters wealsey twinbrothers, they put such contrast of vibrancy ( and cheekiness) into the school.

Looney Luna, lol. elys kept laughing at her "blur" moments but she's really nice. (:

anywhoooo.. came back from comm meeting and i need to work on my work, arghh.. deadlines coming and they're called deadlines for a reason: ill be dead by the time i reach that line.

Lord help me, to depend on you and put in effort and discipline, rahrr. ):

May i not lie.....

to myself and to others....

and be transformed into a new creature.

p.s. ning's weird quizz

lol

6 weird things about me:

1. i love re-enacting stories from anywhere....

2. I love following dance steps from MV or concerts, since i was in pri school (n'sync) lol

3. I laugh out loud so loudly that i get annoyed myself...

4. I never do my work when im supposed to...

5. ANOhsgduwhsoakkktootoohahahhaa... yes im that weird...

6 people to do this quiz:

-i dont know 6 people who read my blog and has blogs... erm

anyone?......

bluehair

2007-07-09T21:23:00.000+08:00

made this picture, it's first time using coral painter, it suppose to look painting-ish.
just look at the undetailed details, oh i add a special touch to it with macro, just observe the picture for a while...
and ive lost touch with fb so much, i hate my lack of concentration...feel so unprepared to learn each time, can't stand it. gotta miss yf too. WTman.
rahrr, watch the dance competition show, wow, so touching .. such a noble man, mmm. supporting his family like that... touching but fame?
i don't know.

videoeditin today was like "what!!?" sick videos we have to edit, so gory, blunt, just plain sick at times. but what to do. the shooting the gore, sick. sick. n they just label it art.

im going to gyeonggi in my dreams. thanks.

still loving funk~

2007-07-07T00:48:00.000+08:00

happyhappysmiley.

should i go for floorball training tmr?

i think i will

after all my pon-ness have been rather rampant esp today with Jimin chingu,

on our secret shopping trip!!

although my 'ab-muscles' hurt like eggs hurt when you crack them, yes painful.

*you make me smile, can't wait to see you again

it's just you, me and smoothies<3>

2007-06-23T22:38:00.000+08:00

message:
안녕 지민!~친구~

다니엘,사랑해~ 하하하...아니, 지민 뭐해요?

아!!공포 영화 봐요? 곡포--무슨~

알아?아니?---괜찮아요~

entry:

mmm... this sonsengnim was the most awesome one ive had.

chingu will agree on this (: SUPER GOOD

wah 좋아! 좋아!~ heh

but i seriously need to study, and mmm start on my work too...bleah

should i go floorball tmr?

man i need more training, played super badly today. agh rather upset at myself today.

didnt stay back to watch the match, rushed to yf (:

didnt do drills well, don't know why my body just doesnt wanna go mad like it should.

just holding me back, against the mind's will. yeah sometimes the body controls the mind too.

instead of the latter.

man super at the verge of tears just now, how trival the reason it was,

lol. cause of the fear of mysteries. argh. since young i have this kong-ju ( argh sorry my chinese and korean is getting mixed up. ) you know fearful feeling? for mystery stories or games, so annoying...it just happens. its inevitably haunting to me? but hey nikki says she too has this problem. man i was freaking out the way home, but then i prayed about it and it just wasn't as fearful anymore...(: and i know who eat all the food! (: in the mysterious book of the animals story. it was interesting i know but it just freaks me out... no matter how childish the riddle is or something. it was a story with clues in each picture of each page, every small detail might cout or it might turn out to be a red herring.bleah waste time.. haha..

mmm.listening to yellowcard's Lights and Sounds album, found it in the maclab in school. :X

i don't fancy noisy guitars and drums, sorry, but some tracks are ok i guess (: hahah...

---funk dance is funky.

toodles. (:

-yoojeong~<3

gymming

2007-06-21T23:36:00.000+08:00

Instead of hurling angry words

That wound and stir up strife,

Use words of kindness, filled with love,

heal and nourish life.

Proverbs 15

1 A gentle answer turns away wrath,

but a harsh word stirs up anger.
2 The tongue of the wise commends knowledge,

but the mouth of the fool gushes folly.
3 The eyes of the LORD are everywhere,

keeping watch on the wicked and the good.
4 The tongue that brings healing is a tree of life,

but a deceitful tongue crushes the spirit.

mmmm.. gotta learn from that.

its true.

TRUE THAT,,,

(my new phrase instead of true true...)

mmm not so upset anymore. (:

haha,,went gym, with nicolette, funfun,saw shaun on the way he was running like mad. haha..

so funny, i run on threadmill and stopped exactly at 4.44km. one kind of a shiok, can go on, but getting a bit late and did some other weights, and like had to be shooed out of the gym cause it was closing... rharr..going back again, if only i have the time. rahr....hope i can perform better on sat training.... got coach ehh. creepy.

the left side of my right feet is hurting a bit.. eh.. didnt wear my shoes properly i think...

chiong work tmr at school, cnt finish for sure, and ned to leave early to eat dinner with chingu (: and go for hanguel ban. wonder who our new songsengnim will be.....ahh jinjjah, what to do when im a cyber slacker? harrrrahrr.

ok now what im suppose to do, yeah scandalous hhahaha.. such sandal caught in the act! HAHAHAHA.... and i know who has this picture too!~ HAHHA...muahahahaaa... if you dont treat me to strawberry sunrise in south canteen ill proclaim hahaha.. just kiddding! (: hahaha... no its funny. (:h hehhee. i love the necklace though (: wonder who bought it for him? (:

-good mood good mood until tomorrow....

annyoung!`(:

im okay.

2007-06-21T18:51:00.000+08:00

made this picture just a few seconds ago... mmm, anyhow whacked it but just needed the feeling.

suppose to be a scandalous picture to blackmail R. but i felt weirdabt it not in the mood to joke... so i decided to add on touches to create an inner meaning.rharr.

X-ray to your heart;

learning form commskills,

well now i have this little habit to(sometimes) analyse people's motive, people's attitude towards me,

signals, body signals, just trash it, seriously.

cause most of the time it's just a rush of blur emotions

at different times, you don't know what you are doing.

what you show may not be what you feel,

but if it does, good. But what if the person gets it already,

can't you see the feedback given? " i get it..."

and when you can, will the person just stop letting those signals out

for the rest is redundant and prolong signals, will

lead to annoyance and just bring out other emotions, maybe even anger?

that is unnecessary or even unintentional from the messager's side...

and what if you gave the signals wrongly, what if what you think

is not what is factual in this case?

you gave the signals, i played along, but when you stop, i did to,

so what's the use of anymore signals, stop it now.

your body language is so tricky, trash it...trash the communication barrier; so set so strong against anyone else or somebody.

treat me like a real person for once.

sorry.but at this point of time,

it seems so much like this....

dont be upset,im sorry that im ok.

hmm dont feel like blogging for a while after this...... just dont.

going to the gym, try to get some fresh air, until i come back to sq one again.

ignorance is not bliss

2007-06-20T21:45:00.001+08:00

ignorance is not bliss: sometimes.

just came across my mind,

that so many things that people choose to ignore,

or things i myself rather circumnavigate,(GASP!)

than to face it, it's just sums up to irresponsibility,

or fear of what the results might bring you,

or just not wanting to work things out,

or just plain sloth working(lazing)...

and at all times,

in relationships,

ignoring someone will not solve the problem,

from what ive experienced.

Being in the shoes of the 'ignored' and 'ignoring.'

i don't know if its just me, but my conscience will always

nag at me, and it torments me when i avoid communicating

or building bonds with someone because of some reason,

it's just difficult and a sense of selfishness and uneasiness just takes over.

and being ignored is the worst, esp. for myself, i may seem like

someone with a lot of friends but im very particular,

i easily feel 'left-out' and oh sososos much often 'invisible'

you should see me in the past, i could have died from depression,

thinking nobody likes me, just because one particular person's gestures,

i generalised everyone's emotions towards me. you can call me paranoid,(still do)

and have low self-esteem whichever you wanna call it,

but how i fail to have a kingdom-mindset,

that relationships on this earth is nothing compared to the heavenly one

above with God...

--cringe* but still itll be more pleasant on earth to feel loved(:

SUCH A SELFISH ONE SIDED ACT

if i dont show love towards others first,

like how God loved me first...

although ive learnt not to expect anything back from that person,

but if you do, that'll be 100x greater than when expecting something.

oh well,today i went for training,( it was hilarous fun btw)... and my captain announced the people choosen for school team

wow, i got choosen, *gulp*, wow.

seriously like woah... like what are the odds at the number of talents in my huge batch!

But Thank God for this opportunity, and it's tentative, meaning as we get closer to tournament and as we train more, there might be changes, like it depends on the coach to promote or demote people in and out of school team. God really empowered me in this aspect, i just seem to be able to do well in my CCAs, definitely not by my strength... but God's, God taught me a great lesson in sec. school when i was the leader of the cca, and well, things happened, was awesomely p*ss off with the teacher. but then the aftermath brought about and it taught me great humility. I pray that i'll keep that virtue with me and into the court...need to train as hard as ever..ever.

its slowing taking over my sec passion, lol... although it still revives in me once in a while in retrospect...

bleah but why must schoolteam training be on sat afternoons? miss YF again... belah.. always rush there but its not good la... and so many other things i need to settle too...hmmm... Pray fr me guys to know what to do....but good thing my captain says if unable to make it for the sat can go for freshies training on wed. (: but technical skills on sat... wahh..mmmmmm....

alright im stuffed ate dinner that i prepared, with my own money and sweat(eww) not in the food la. gonna practice some dance steps. (seriously.)

random poetic-ness:

why do i see green when i see your face in the reflection of her eyes?

yeah... why?!

A Phantom's Cry

2007-06-19T18:00:00.000+08:00

sleep well tonight; dont hear cries of misses&bogoshipdah silently rings...

-------------------------------------------------------

heard of Vitas?

myseriousrussiandolphinman i call him. lol..
he's voice is just so enchanting you know?
but its creepy. mysterious and dark
at the same time lovely and light.
well in some songs, the slow ones. like Dedication.
he reminded me so much of my dream/nightmares
i dont know what to call them,
but was a sequence of two or three nights,
whereby this stranger in a cloak,
is like my murderer ( he slashed my throat in every dream, thanks)
but he actually saves me from a near-death situation just before that.
i couldnt see his face but he was some european man, deep-set eyes.. dashing (LOL!!)
in the last dream i saw his face, cause after he saved me from a brutal accident,
and he looked at me, i felt like i was sucked in...
so much more details to tell, but i'd rather not., too long-winded.
But he's like my phantom, that sings and im enchanted and tranced into his being.
which in fact is romantic, yet CREEPY BEYOND EXISTANCE. please. feel like writing a poem...mmm

is to be read according to flow of the music...
The Phantom's Cry

A slight feverish feeling gently brushed
upon the skin of my cheeks,
your fingers moving along a melodious caress.
You fixed your gaze to lock into mine helplessly
you had a daunting hold to my inner weakness,
i never realised, or had accquinted with.
As you stole all my breath away into yours.
you sing deep bass notes, to suck me in, swift,
gentle; graceful strength. Oh sweet evanescent!

I was motionless in your little secret actions,
but i saw my shadow drifting; dancing within thin breezy hiatus,
all as if this doll of yours was myself in your deep transfixture.
Enchantment so terrifying a fear,
an uplifting addiction to my ears.
Idyllic unknown language you spoke and vocalised,
with such a wide diapason,
down my neck, numbed into my tortured; battered heart
beating only for your delicate love and deadly romance.

Sudden haste, renaissance dragged within my real substance
"I don't want to die in your arms tonight,
let me live...let me go..."was my simple silent scream
to this montrous being lurking over, i could never comprehend
or ever come to understand and sympathize.
Was I to just let you smother me with your allure so
entralling. was it your pleasure to beguile me so?
To gratify your solitary presence,
filling each desolate corner of your pain-striken past?

Awaking of my bloodless muscles,
reaching out to your gruesome disguise,
what coarse palpation, yet strangely soft as the clouds floated
around us, so bright a darkness i saw behind
this facade you damaged upon your desperate
longing for one's companionship.

"There's no need for you suffering...
I'd gladly exist to make you feel alive and loved again"
And as i thrust myself to your embrace,
fathomless you hang bewilderment across your face,
so much confusion rang aimlessly in your virgin unloved mind.
"Why love me? A beast in everyone's eyes?"
There was no time left for explanations.
Only eternity for our pursuit for lost time and fantasy.

2007-06-18T14:45:00.000+08:00

寄没有地址的信
这样的情绪有种距离
I cant take the distance...

你放着谁的歌曲
是怎样的心情 能不能说给我听
I'll gladly listen...

雨下得好安静
是不是你 偷偷在哭泣
I'm here for you, dont be sad.
幸福(它)真的不容易
在你的背景有我爱你
I'm walking closely...

我可以陪你去看星星
不用再多说明 我就要和你在一起
我不想又再一次和你分离
我多么想每一次的美丽是因为你

i'm not feeling cheenafied.
i just feel....
it's just you.
i really wish for all these things, and sometimes i feel so much this way.
I will do so much for you, if only you'll let me.

ftaherr

2007-06-18T13:20:00.000+08:00

(yupp amanda's back in singapore! )

suppose to blog about camp but it has been such a long time, many other things happened that has sorta covered up my emotions for camp. yeh.

well just to sum it all u, i love the idea of living with your fellow christians, its just super nice ok, n no parents to nag at me for the whole week,. (GASP!) no la, but i mean its lke you gott have the discipline to follow the time-table given, to stay awake, to like care for your safety, so much fun everyday, no stress of school-work. to be worshipping God in meaningful songs in one united voice is so great. and the stories from the missionaries that inspire, althought not much to me, but it is a wonderful thing that they sacrifice so much for God's great commission and cause. to want to live life, to ultimately Glorify Him. and like prayer was highlighted in the camp and i agree it is such an important part of our lives. It the gift from God to communicate with Him, isn't that awesome? (: and i thank God for the friends ive gone closer to, or got to know, and encouragement and comfort given to me (: Thanks Guys. (:

I really pray that God would teach me to walk to the beat of His heart, to have a kingdom-mindset in everything, and everyday of my life.

as for pictures can go to my shutterfly link which is conviniently on this blog! (: under all the links, yupps (: erm. jubilee dinner pictures too (:

in which reminds me of how i didnt srve God properly that day when ushering, like Eld. Quek gonna scold me. man... must pay more attention... more zealous and discipline in serving the Lord and not let things of this world distract me. talking to hans. i can't stand it, i feel so bad when i see him... so uneasy. heh.... may that not hinder me from serving God as usher again...):

-----

today had an amazing, though tiring experience in my family breakthrough, i was so amazed and like my first hand experience, and i felt God so much closer. I was truly in awe that God guided me through it. I dont think i should tell anyone about what happened just yet. but it was interesing but i pray it would last and a change might occur. not just go back to sq one.more of mothers' day than fathers' day.

oh God, please.....

----------------

had Fathers'Day Dinner at a KoreanCharcoal BBQ resturant! (:

장수숯불살비!(:

so many extra side dishes, even more than when i was in Korea. hahah. super special please.i ate a lot of 감치!~ like super a lot. and there were meats which the waitresses cooked infront of us for us. and like lettuce wraps. and 치개.. and ate super full and suppose to be cheap but after ordering all those soupy and special meats, it sum up to a whooping 200++ man.

to show you how many side dishes....and its one kind in one dish.

oops. thats the finished picture.. hold on...

there you go... yeah. interesting huh? 네?

GASP! smoking a cigar?Think it's Fathers'Day so can anyhow-anyhow? nahh. its just green chilli you eat with beef rolled in lettuce, i ate one of those, very nice (;
overall it was the shiok la.
(:

played floorball and frisbee after, the shiok although after that went for the dinner and came home and just slept i didnt wash up or anything i just walked to my bed and blanked out. one kind please..... lol.
i gott clean my room... bleh. (: going to upload photos unto shuttle maybe after. (:
love you reader! (:
~<3annyoung!>

church camp back

2007-06-15T21:17:00.000+08:00

weird photo with elys, ruthiepoo took it, im in black and facing back and elys making some crazy face lol...

im back from church camp! (: for a week in Malacca.(never spent much time in m'sia before) (:

well, so much has happened..........

and how i realised how i let my emotions get in my way.
my mind weakens and had let Satan take over it.
and towards the end of the camp,
i find my self in a struggle, no, more of
a anger jealously war between myselves.
I scorn and laugh at your suffering for you caused mine.
why?....my self-inflicted sorrow?
But im always running, running to keep staring.
why cant i just let go, and let God do it,
IN HIS TIME.

will blog in detail and in a more positive tone another day + photos.
Jubilee Dedication service and Dinner tomorrow! after rushing from floorball can i make it? hemmm... i dont knw.but im going no matter what. i hope ill feel better than i did today.

You sure know how to touch a girl...

rahzilah

2007-06-10T15:23:00.001+08:00

oh my clouded mulky disgusting mind,

i hope it doesnt go badly wrong,

or i'll have to swallow up the same ol' song

singing hopes of crazy selfish love,

and killing decrees of romance and it's birth.

you remind me so much of him... it scares me.

------------------------------------------that aside------

CHURCH CAMP yippy. hahaha..although ill miss floorball like mad. rahr.

i cnt wait gott pack my(okok,its my dad's) mickeymouse comic luggage hahah (:

my first church camp! (: how exciting! (:

rahrr..i miss floorball just now to get some stuff done, went to the place and it was closed! WOW.

so much for that...

im gonna get ready thingshahha,, a lot of paper to write to disgustin, my korean study materials and even my homework,eh,, ahaha...what are they?..... im gonna sneak my floorball stick..mmm,,dunno will itll work hahaha. (:

oh man. i misssssssssss *cough* you. cant wait to see you smile again.

who is 'you'?

hahah for me to know.

not for you to find out...

NOT my yeobo<3 la ahahah (:

maybe its the mermaid man's son?

im mad, dont bother....

*chants* church camp hoohoo!

--i dread my dad's gonna rampage my room to 'clean' it.. GASP, the horror.-----

singing lalalalaa.... (: excited like mad.

im am super exhausted to the point of no return, huh? super long day yesterday and like slept so late because of 단일DANYILI!! tsktsk, lol. byeeeeee! again.

ill be posting in a week's time! (:

i wanna rest so i can go crazy later (:

Annyoung, chingudeul!~

see you in a week!

~<3유정

2007-06-09T18:52:00.000+08:00

lol just came back from floorball training, ahhh was super tired didnt think i would survive after i had YDcamp straight before that~staying up late until almost 5 and waking at 8 plus. and sleeping so lil' the days before as well, man. but rahrhhrr , im gladi went floorball cause it rocks my smelly socks la please. seriously. today i tried to polish my slapshot, heh,playing forward. i just cant defend, seriously. lol!~

anyhoo, YD camp was nice (: i love fellowshipping with my fellow brothers and sisters in Christ (: and it helped me to focus too (: mmm yupp although i had school in between and went to school early, and worst still, the lecture was cancelled and then tutorial was nice (: lol went out to find textures , awesome what daily life objects could have such nice textures. (:

well stayed out LATE to play sab0teur like until almost 5, lol. i played like more than 5 times lol.... so awesome please. lol. i was getting a lil' zanny, hahah...k3nji was like mad too hahaha.. and poor grammie was always targetted to be blocked for building great wall of China, and the lows are creepy sab0teurs lol.. (: night games was fun too i helped too indirectly (: hahah (: okok gotta go now,my gram's birthday (:

ccooolllldid

2007-06-06T09:02:00.000+08:00

yawn, i cant stand myself how am i to finish my assignment well? i have floorball today taht would take my whole afternoon and WONGWONg pangsehier. we hardly meet at trainings!! tsktsk!! must breathe, live, eat floorball ahaha.erm..cancel the last part.

and DAN YI LIthe one is so mean. *sobsobs*
:O he declared war on me just because i wasnt at my com. i never wanted war man.

and M2NC, 안녕 친구들!~ 보고싶어요!^^~ <3

ok back to myself, TSKTSK myself, do your work!! (:

rhashxnn

2007-06-05T07:01:00.001+08:00

MUST KILL BEARBEAR! hahah CHINGU-MIAN. hahahhah mianada! eehhe...
random photo. i know. was at chingu's house. hahaa

oh man trying to not think about my bad dream, that is for short, someone said some bad comment about me and i didnt take to heart and thought it was all ok, and then we started as a grp to do supr stupid things with snow ( its a dream what to expect/?) and like i sorta broke down a bit and started crying cause' i held it in for too long...and leans hugged me and consoled me and i just cried and i just woke up. yeah.. saddddddddddd....woah
but then i sat here and and like prayed about it an it suddenly came to me, a new perspective, that is a reminder of YD 2 weeks ago,God reminded me of how in our struggles and trials, fellow christians must stick together and comfort; encourage each other. although it was a church persnn that said something mean to me in the dream(erm i think its just a connection of people and events around me created that strange combination lol. )well, erm to hold our tongue to prevent saying things that would create bad emotions in others, stumble some people, I've started to be exposed to more people who just cant hold their tongue ( myself included) and say horrible or unintentional things , which were mostly unneccessary in the first place...and ive regretted them, ' better in than out your mouth. '
felt so annoyed that i wanted to go jogging like just now. but too late already need to get ready for school. rahrr! im kinna stressin about concept.de module assignment due this thurs. *scream. ahhjinjjah.
although im lookin forward to thurs night. (: need to do some research first. (: hahha. woopee.
i pray that things will turn out right.

Pirates 3

2007-06-03T19:13:00.000+08:00

hoho.
watched the three movies of Pirates in two days, watched second one last night through the morning, and today i watched the third movie, and now im watching the first one on chnl 5 lol.
im mad. lol. yo---ho!`
elys&i and the boys lol. so fun!~(:
great time hahah. (:

oh chingu& i are starting classes next week!!~ woots... (; oh no! need to study first and all lassignments!!! creep.

prayingyeobo

2007-05-31T10:27:00.000+08:00

You're my life's one miracle
Everything I've done that's good
And you break my heart with tenderness
And I confess it's true
I never knew a love like this 'til you

You're the reason I was born
Now I finally know for sure
And I'm overwhelmed with happiness
So blessed to hold you close
The one that I love most
Though the future has so much for you in store
Who could ever love you more?

The nearest thing to heaven
You're my angel from above
Only God creates such perfect love

When you smile at me, I cry
And to save your life I'd die
With a romance that is pure in heart
You are my dearest part
Whatever it requires
I live for your desires
Forget my own, your needs will come before
Who could ever love you more?

There is nothing you could ever do
To make me stop loving you
And every breath I take
Is always for your sake
You sleep inside my dreams and know for sure
Who could ever love you more?

I hope you know where all your strength is from~

~<3유정

17th Birthday

2007-05-27T17:32:00.001+08:00

wow, this year i had the best best bestest best of all best birthdays (:

my first and second suprise birthday on the same birthday lol!~

---woot.와와와와와와!!!~

wowee. i felt so blessed. to have such great friends, God really have blessed me with awesome people.

thanks to all who smsed me at midnight or thoughout the day, so many of you lol...

and those friendster wishes from friends and overseas peeps (:

you guys are too kind, so sweet of you peeps (:

lol.. was to meet clara n that korean macs guy ( i knew you were bluffing me!! as proven in previous entry...) lol. but your suprise to my house gate wasnt that suprising cause i saw you and chingu already! hahahah!!~ so funny. thanks for the scented candle and yakult n sunglasses from clara& naddy and the awesome creative card chingu and the 0lgc primary school book you two gave me..so sweet (: hahah... and walking me out together on my way to school

thanks to all my classmates who rmbrred my birthday! (: no gifts were needed la (: haha. was kinna suprised by the people who remembered (: so sweet....

thanks to Leanmeats who was late to meet me, lol JUST kidding.. and ate with me, and juicyjuls, nikki,ruthiepoos who suprised me with a cake! awww (: although im not a spongey cake person, i know you guys knew and thought it wasnt a spongey cake but were cheated hahah! and thanks elyssah dr.nabis and disgustin for coming later and for your card, its one of my fav birthday gifts ever forever, really.. (: awww. gagag..gleessageetgloisters..gagaga!

and for that super nice d1va necklace! (: from lowsgrammas. lol.

and then thanks band peeps, elmo, dev and all jrs. (: who gave me such a cute card, and those chocs. OH wait where is it??...( so find it before my brothers eat it up.....) brb.. AHHH.. i cant find it! wahh.. madness..

and renetty concert was super good, lol mr tan is so good and funny. and it makes me wanna take up my trombone and play again. lol. man...

hahah

and the trip home took as long as the long trip there. lol. like an hour just in the bus... and like super funny. with dr.nabis and disgustin, with the snapple-high. lol. i started getting high as usual aftr ther concert and then she went drunk in the bus. gustin had slowly came to the darkside lol *cheerswithsnaplebottle* , the youger girls think we were mad lol. lol. but they were noisy too and elys supersuper funny, she kept doing funny things HAHAH. disturbin those girls LOL!!~ hilarous hahahah. and gustin~~ too. hahahh (: all the way mian

and went home and like had family cake-cutting, woah my second brother bought swensen's ice-cream cake, Napoleon ice-cream cake. woah. i love dried ice. hahah.. erm. and the cake. lol. and the sweet gifts. hahah. (:

yupp.. the day was great from the morning all to the night.. *grin. haah. (:

from the week before... nikki&cheryl for their super cute notepad with other stuff (made in korea!) hahaha.(:and sammie's cute black winnie the pooh bottle , how useful! (:

and devon for singing:" sengil chukahampnida!" at sentosa (:

even until today! (:

thanks for lean's cheesycheese cake, couldnt eat lunch. haah. and the YF card, to all those who signed it, all those funny and thoughtful words. (: and for gerald's cool crayons and charcoal! thanks dear, you know what i like hahah.(: all you guys do(:

Thanks to all of you and Thanks you here. hahahahhaa... Thank God. (:

from the bottom of my heart to all those who in anyway contributed:

기쁘다!고맙습니다!!~

친구들 고마워!~

THANK YOU (:

~<3유정

17!

2007-05-25T01:17:00.000+08:00

(LOL. rahr.)

I'm 17!

but i loved being 16..16 is the life man.

bleah, not 18....nor 19... rahrr..20!!~ thats like J's age, hahah.. i hope he doesnt grow older anymore lol.. imagine him 21, oh man. lol. so sad. haha...<3333333????

neh sengil...(:

Thanks great peeps for smsing me at midnight, all you sweetiepies (:

Gerald,<3

April<3

Neighbie!<3

Net<3

Leenmeats<3

oh.... i have school later...meeting clara n that koreanish macs guy? HAHAH. no.. im tired. i think she's just fooling me.

got a great day ahead of me! bloggin l8r~!

annyoung

~<3yoojeong.

cancelled

2007-05-23T21:16:00.000+08:00

Took this picture of this tree yesterday and it was gone today!( the vast changes of life~)

floorball practice was cancelled (how could it be!!!?) and i only knew after rushing to the bustop ( i took only 13 minutes this time! (: ) and like... in the blazing, Literally sizzling-hot sun, mian. didnt believe it at first but, yeah heard a chess tournament was going on in the sports hall, so ... it was cancelled, wow.
walked back home with a new unique route went past my primary school and a tinsy bit of nostalgia hit me, yeah. But im like mostly in awe, like how HUGE that primary school is, so sad, and it's so 'open' like , i dont know compared to the cosy ol' kampong school i grew up in, its saddening. although parents flocked to enrol their daughters in, but they'll never get those funny and special childhood stories bout the place to tell next time. the rabit hutch behind the science lab, the mini garden which is always locked, the garden of peace, (i think it's still there), and the cool kids hang-out behind the canteen, secret meeting place where the bell cant be heard n always late for assembly LOL. those were the silly days man... lol. so funny. anyhoo, but that hill that i always walk up seem super steep but much shorter compared to when i was in primary school and i hang out at francine's house to play FF8 or DDR or Chrone cross or Street fighter WOOT. hahah , so fun la, i think she moved, so sad..mmm...and how with my neighbours we would everyday without fail go cycling all around serangoon like mad lost treasure huntersLOL... we got lost so many times after 7pm and we got into trouble but oh well, it was super fun la. *sigh i miss those days ..hahah.. and the park oh man the park, lol.. those stupid boys, rahrr.hahahah.... that dreadful soccer ball. rhahhrrr.. ahahah.. those days playing badminton and getting hit by the boys on purpose lol and the silly girls vs. dumb boys fight oh man, that was crazy... stoning and water bombs and hosing hAHAHha.. SO CRAAZYY!! buti wasnt caught in it lol, i was young but smart, okay! hahahah~oh man Arthur LOLOLOLOLOLOL!!! SCRETAMMMMMMAMAM!! hahahah.. super hilarous boy. lol now he's sorta grown up and like so christopher lee LOL... dunno la. hahahah. less mental la. HAHAH... oh man cardboard drsses he had LOL!!! rhr.. ... and playing imaginary games with neighbie lol... with blankets lol. and musical games at the back of our houses.. oh mian... soooo funn. (:

anyhoo, back from being in retrospect.....
yeahh, the hot sun was hotter than hot ok.hahaha. but it was good la,i like it!~ ( if only i werent wearing outing clothing) although i could have stayed at home and do up my assignments, erm speaking of which... mmmm...adieu...

annyoung!!~~<3yoojeong

oh i made a new layout, finally. (: did it yesterday by accident! (:

my ohmy

2007-05-21T22:11:00.000+08:00

i cant wait for spiderman 3...

i heart! spidey! and i like venom too for some queer reason, he's cool in a phantom , shadow way, erm... like how i like silver surfer; as a kid i got confused with him and ice-man but i love ice-man more lol. my fav x-man..(:

commskills was cancelled today and i didnt use my time wisely although i touched the piano finally after months, i stil can play it! God blessed me with this strange talent to play a little, gotta practice and use it wisely and multiply it!

well, people's been asking and the answer is yes! he is. HUH?

LOL....kor, he doesnt need a haircut!~ lol. eh?

i feel like smiling?~

toodles!

erm bye.. (: cant wait for wed's training... thinking of tennis...
~<3m

mmmm

2007-05-20T22:40:00.000+08:00

my cheaper but sleek stick in red and black and white ( some of my fav colours! (: ) the ball's half red and half white, nice eh? (:

played floorball 3 times this week, im aching, but im happy lol

oh need more training... trials soon.....but come what may, what God planned.

and i cant believe i told natsha his full name, cant stand it when twin-sisters like the same guy. LOL!! just kidding...

singing the same lines all over again...

im looking forward to next week .... *heee..

17번째 생일 !~

~<3유정
oh how i love spidey!<3

naesarang

2007-05-16T03:00:00.000+08:00

he's messy& dis-organised like me. hohoho!!~ oh no.

wow, what jonggook did for eunhye oh the madness, i think he is the most romantic guy on xman, lol....romanseu.so surreal , i mean who in this real world would think of something like that on the spot. wow, ill be so touched man....

cover my ears and tell him you dont love me anymore,
and save me the hurt.

ahhh

2007-05-14T21:17:00.000+08:00

oh i cant believe myself and this state of mind.
i deleted my previous blog for that very purpose to forget you.
why does jealousy rear it's ugly head within my own subconscious mind
accepts nothing less than my fantasy itself.
come what may and i know in my heart,
anything can happen, even right from the start
if only ill meet you in another person another form whereby
love is not so difficult and impossible to obtain to
think of it's many opportunities in itself.
perhaps it's like those passing clouds,
but why does it seem like it is now a painting
and still and never gonna change,
perhaps in another time like this i'll kill myself and die.
cause' i feel like i could do anything to be with you,
but more often than daily i pray that you'll be well and healthy,
and that you'll one day find out the life you are born to live,
not only for your family or yourself but a greater purpose,
so dont mistify mine.
if onlys surface in each of our hearts as i sit and wait
inpatiently, and say the words i mean to say
right from the start,
yeobo, museun ilee ileonaljirado,
when we sengmyeonhadah,
you see a difference in me,
and let me be who i am for you,
to be who are are suppose to be.
sieomeoni, accept my shortcomings.
as i never will change, though i hope with my heart
i can, for your liking i will, if you will accept us.
A great leap and great responsibility to bear
but i'll be glad as long as yeobo, you are there.
to go through those trials, with God's guidance and strength
to one day start living our beautiful ordinary life.

나는 널 보고싶어하고 있을거야

~<3유정

ㅡㅐ솓ㄱㄴ'ㅇ묘

2007-05-14T07:59:00.000+08:00

bleh... was so sick, i had a great big headache yest. starting from lunch and all through3 hrs of non-stop floorball... time passes by man! lil'andrew is super cute and super good man, air hook all. lol...but my head was pulsing aftr that.. argh went to j8 with els1e and went to get stuff...

guess what chingu, i got 5 in the hei too! (: woot. i know what you mean now!!!wooooooottt!,please!!~ ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ아요!!~he's just so... *argh lol!!~^^

but thank God i got home safely, cause my head was in such pain that i cried over it...jinjjahyo!!~ took a bathe and rested a short while and i felt much better, although i puked.. heh. mothers' day dinner at a seafood restuarant with my family and my halmeoni, ahh she's so cute.

제 duljjeh oppa is such a handsome korean.LOL!!~

아파~

javaneseixora

2007-05-11T21:59:00.000+08:00

my auntie handed me a bunch of javanese ixora and told me it's from my brother's friend, and i asked him and he said it was from Andrew. that's pretty strange...erm..haahha.

on the topic of flowers i just realised the flower of korea: 무궁화 aka Hibiscus syriacus,
http://www.rcy.or.kr/mp3/track6.mp3
is one of my fav flowers since young! i used to admire my neighbour's big hibiscuses, i love them man.. esp those red ones. sweet. i think they're of a diff species? but, i still love em'. (: beautiful creations! now i know what that game meant by the R0se 0f Shar0n has bloomed. (:

*yawn im tired, my laptop cant connect to any wireless connections, i lost my NEW* yes bran-new!!!!~* --jinjjjjjahh. 시~ ez-link card,*gulp* i really dont remember dropping it!!` rahr., at least its not my whole wallet or hp or student identity card or something, but to think someone out there has my face on a card and my new card photo sticker i placed just today!( wasted xiah!) with his handsome face( eh?) on it, arghh. so weird. so creepy. i want my card back. please.. sobsobsobsobs.. lol. Pray that it's in safe hands not some construction worker who needs some cash for transport...that stole my brother's bike, arggh, BURGLER!!!!!~~ rahhrr. sorry, have this thing against such despicable behaviour...(yeah some construction worker came in and stole my brother's bike. and rode off on it, out my annoyingly unlocked gate.!!!) Well, still , mmm, on a brighter note, thank God for other things, that ive done my serious replacement problems, got new appointment before church camp, did not lose all my stuff, and maybe i could make a new one? ( so malu, lose so quickly!) but can change my ugly photo lol. *always look on the bright side of life. Count my blessings...* and God's reminder for me to clean up my room properly! * my head's gonna blow soon.. cant wait for break in june, 2 weeks, one week at camp, another to sort my mess out. I'm so messy i abhor it!!! I such a muddleheaded person, i really admire people who are disciplined, neat, and are really organised without any effort; would love that brain power..
tmr gonna (hopefully) wake up early and beat the crowd and run back the route i took and see if i can still find it, and go for morning jog. (:

mm my eyelids are so heavy i cant see clearly anymore, *try to settle things by myself and not tell dad. gulp or he'll scold me again...tsk myself.*

--miss you guys!
natsha--sorry have not been talking for a weeek! too bad youre an MGian im a DMian. lol.
you're an m-gian, im a d-mian---yi4 wan3! jia1 la4 jiao1, xie1 xie1 auntie!!~ eh? (:

친구!: meet up again sometime!! (: 제 한글 반2의 starts yaye. 아자!아자!화이팅!~

all of other readers: hello!
(: lol. <3사랑해~<3유정

beauiful thing

2007-05-11T05:13:00.000+08:00

i went into the studio room and put my stuff down and got in for rehersal for a while, after watching the other girl acting her truimphant role, i went to my position: under the bench, portraying under those american homes with a patch of soil under the house( cant rmrbr what its called) and i laid there getting into the 'mood' of it all, in my lowly and pitiful character, the director/teacher gave me the green light, and i suddenly felt a huge blow of emotions set concentrated from my heart to my tears, i can see people watching me from the corner of my eyes, they looked, i can;t remember how they felt, but i know how i did. and then my teacher applauded me for my acting skills, i didnt want to boast , so i kept quiet, but they wasnt the reason i did keep silent. it seems my heart came back to the story, that charcter, the rising star who fell, why did it appeal to me so much?

and then i met two of my friends, shan't say their names, but they were pretty happy and cheery , ithink they were part of the audience just now, and they were linking arms and took mine too, and went to the nearby piano and played this song, this melody that was so familiar for the first second and then hurt for the next, and the next and the next, each note tormented me, but why?

"stop playing that song!!" i forced her hand off the piano keys, " dont play that song, please."

"why? i like this song" and she continued playing with glee, but in this joy of hers i found pain, but why?
"wow this song's nice" my other friend agreed, i agreed too, but why did i hate it so much?
" it is a very popular song, i heard it on the local station."

maybe that's why.

he sang it for and to me once before, that sweet voice seemed now so far away.
his name came to me like a blot of eletric love.
i cant believe i felt at that moment, that my beautiful thing was no longer mine.

---when will you be back, i asked.
but there was no reply.

floo2

2007-05-10T01:39:00.000+08:00

today was a super waste of time yet not totally useless, went out with chingu deul, to buy stuff, got some cool items. *please no regrets!* ahh bad stewardship of money i know, but ....
i would like another colour but they didnt have the in my size, i guess i went too late,
oh i would like red ( hot) any kind of slippers from anywhere any price, as long as it is red. *hinthint*---on 25th may would be nice. thanks.
GASP!* shocked at my own blantantness... LOL. *tsktsk*

and i <3 floorball man, awesome much, although i want badly for my stick to come soon, the stick i used was horrid, the blade was super uncurved, or well, curved to a distorted left, so .. argh, cant like curve or twist the ball prop, so cant play about with it either. and the shaft grip was all torn and my hands were like as if i held a stickas in a branch from a sludge of mud, it made my hands pretty dirty.. but did more fun drills today, and i was looking forward to 5 round running, but they cut it short to 4? weird out.
oh i just rmbred, lol today i was a target , they were and still are out to get me, i was hit was flying floorballs today, 6 to be exact, and that power hockey player whacked me and left her imprint of her power slapshot on my left arm (... not so bad), and there were random shots to my back and what have yous, good resistance training, yet pretty unnecessary, esp. two power balls from that girl, lol, you can literally feel the heat that comes out of that shot after that.or is it the anger she has against me? hahah just kiddin, she said sorry, i guess..
i guess it just a common thing ill always experience, so its nothing big, but im still counting for the unfun of it: 6. LOL. at least i didnt get hit by my seniors' shots, or wait i think i did...

lol.. cheryl and i was like so in the 'F0reign b0dies' mode. beatboxing and breakin' and krumplin and pop'lock , ok, and some chinese dance. LOL.. during floorball. lol. so bad; so mad.And im uber annoyed at my super responsibility to do my best in school for God, the fact that im sorta suffering from Vertigo once in a while, that i just wanted to make sure i do my best in training today i went to see the docs again to get an extension for my medication, that i did not get an MC, twice i could have gotten it, cause both docs seemed worried that i get ultra-vertigo-lised and asked me if i needed one, and like the first time i saw the docs, he said i should not be actually playing sports, lol. but didnt and now im thinking, should i get one for tomorrow, will he give it to me? cause i wana pon school!GASp!* how should such an irresponsible thought ever enter my insane mind? yeah.. cause tommorow's killer tutorials day and i havent done my work yet, tsk-worthy much. rahrrrrrrr.... mmooodddullleeeeesss *cring*i dread Thursday's workload, but i really wanna do my best for God, and do my best in school work. *sigh* ppffft. i gotta start my intense action on my immense amount of stress i mean, workload...

random note: i saw wennie at the 156 busstop today! (: *bowpowpow* blue's bark. hehee.

Yay! Thank God that Mandy got into LS! (: woots much,

BLOG

2007-05-08T20:56:00.000+08:00

quite a while since ive blogged ( redundant sentence)...i obviously havent blogged for ages.

Just in case you would wanna know, ( i highly doubt it)...school's been quite ok, except the fact that tmr(my only free day) ill be so busy im afraid i cant finish up my work for thurs, gotta do them tonight if possible...(which is prob. impossible.) but anything is possible in Christ who strengtheneth me,yea...
but tmr's so exciting... meeting with my chingudeul, finally planning on the next class at camberichhyhakgyo, new sonsengnim? i wonder what happened to Anna?
and floorball started already, pretty cool although i can forsee it's difficulties, the need to get selected to be a league representative or out i go...gulp.*
* still thinking of tae and t.rug.* mmm... nvm, floorball's really cool stuff at the competitive level play, the skills.. very sweet. ...mmmm. woot

oh school's so funny...inner joke: a bangkai bankai.. LOL!
they thinki have a split personalilty and my madness has been discovered by my clssmates, gasp! how am i to be normal any longer? tsktsk, all juns' fault. HUH?" lol.. i love....mmmm..
pardon me, im quizzical...

OHOH!!, yay found my new jogging buddy,wongwong!(: every friday, bishan park, dont stalk us...lol...and sorry nadine! you can run along too!lol. (: but we wanna work towards playing in a league to be fit enough la. I love defender role..woot much!!!
need to do myback spin well so dumb...found this site with super cool shots n tricks..drools*

!
I'm seriously psyched and anticipating church camp, my first church camp! really excited much!!~ cause i think i wont make it for YFcamp. so sad, huh?

anyway, today walking to school was a different affair, the usual mundane walk turned out somewhat heavy, and emotions set in dead soil. That is walking down the same lane every morning called for a change, and today i saw this police car parked outside this house, and about 4 maids looking in the house main door, silence was kept preciously, and i don't know what was going on, neither did i stop to take a look at the situation, and i walked on, and thinking...but soon after forgot about it until i walked back that route again, this time it was plain obvious tht my first hunch feelings were right, yeah, someone living there passed away. A funeral was to be held soon, for the white tent and 3 tables were set up in it's humble grassy patch just right outside the house itself, with the maid trimming the grass...
wonder whether it is who i think it is, the old couple that i see occasionally walking back home...
just somethings to ponder on...
....................................makes you think...

gold

2007-05-01T22:07:00.000+08:00

went out for lunch with nad & chingu had kimchi soup with dumplings (:
tsktsk we sure are vain & materialistic, sigh. gonna go buy those sandals next week! always wanted and needed them since last year lol...
too bad clara cant come too!! ): hope youre fine, girl...
im gonna start training soon, although i most likely not keep it up; looking at my schedule... need to be prepared for napfa in two years time, eh? hope i can get a solid gold... which i missed by 2 last yr,
dont look like that sorta person yea?
i need to do my sch work..argh.. * so last minute*
and only some ppl would understand ( and i hope you didnt and wont tell anyone about it la, not just yet...) but i really wanna have the luxury of tying up my hair in a normal ponytail... i await that day and it made me realise how the simple things of life are often taken for granted, like walking, breathing properly, to speak, laugh, see etc.. many of these basic things some people dont have such luxury, since God given us all these blessings in our daily lives we've gotta cherish them and make use of them to glorify God; the simpliest things in life...

thou didst levae

2007-04-29T22:08:00.000+08:00

Thou didst leave Thy throne and Thy kingly crown,
When Thou camest to earth for me;
But in Bethlehem’s home was there found no room
For Thy holy nativity.

O come to my heart, Lord Jesus,There is room in my heart for Thee.

Heaven’s arches rang when the angels sang,Proclaiming
Thy royal degree;But of lowly birth didst
Thou come to earth,And in great humility.

O come to my heart, Lord Jesus,There is room in my heart for Thee.

The foxes found rest, and the birds their nest
In the shade of the forest tree;
But Thy couch was the sod,
O Thou Son of God,
In the deserts of Galilee.

O come to my heart, Lord Jesus,There is room in my heart for Thee.

Thou camest, O Lord, with the living Word,
That should set Thy people free;
But with mocking scorn and with crown of thorn,
They bore Thee to Calvary.

O come to my heart, Lord Jesus,There is room in my heart for Thee.

When the heav’ns shall ring,
and her choirs shall sing,
At Thy coming to victory,
Let Thy voice call me home, saying
“Yet there is room,There is room at My side for thee.”

My heart shall rejoice, Lord Jesus,When Thou comest and callest for me.

isnt it comforting to know that Christ has came down from Heaven to earth, led a perfect example in a lowly simple life, and died and rose again, and will come back again to call us home; the home He had built for us saved believers? That when i die, i know i won't just 'die' but i'll be living; with God for eternity praising Him...it's life with a new meaning; ultimate finishing line to strive and await for.

kor

2007-04-28T11:20:00.000+08:00

REPLY to tag:

YES KOR, sure... everyone loves Joshie!~( thats what i think youll call him)

---- yeah, everyone in this world--which is mostly you. no la i like him too...

but so gay la, can you stick to your many girlfriends? Jasmine all. hahah!! JUST KIDDING,

i know you're sweet and loyal guy (: hahaha. Do you realise the mr men picture i made you has small >.< eyes, haha proof; the original.

<3-girl

ahh so many things to do now, i wanna go do loadsa stuff..argh. i hate being messy, but i am...mm. erm... going to throw stuff away.sob i actually need it for my school stuff.. but what to do?hahah.. i just realise i cry a lot in the cyber wrld....mmmm..*sob

OH!!! cheryl's joining FB!!!!!~ but i hvent put in much prayer abt it... mmm.. hope if i join FB, it would be in God's Will for me...prayer for me guys! (:cause' there's so many choices, for all i know God would want me to join CCC, or P.A.Ls HAHAHA, no but really...i wanna join a sport. lol. i like...ok but what i ilike doesnt mean the best for me , yeah?mmmm... im pretty much blabbling to myself right now, this being a medium whereby i can think logically ( most of the time) and try to solve some problems......

annyoung~<3yoojeong

josh

2007-04-26T23:56:00.001+08:00

conversation of the day! (: right before midnight! (:

J.Kor:*plays 'You Raise Me Up' video on youtube; on his laptop* "I love Josh Groban"*in glee;
Me: "Haha, xiao, OH! he was on TV!"
Him: "REALLY!!? oh! American Idol is it!?"
Me: "yeah...it's on now..."
Him: "Ohoh!I forgot! but it's over already right?"
Me: "No.. i think there's still other performances..."
Him: *walks to TV, preparing to switch it on* "but no more Josh Groban la?"
Me: "errm. yah it was over a while ago.."
Him:*stops action, walks back to his laptop* , *pouts*...

hilarous. heheheh!!(:
Although i dont fancy watching a bunch of vocally-talented individuals trying to be american's idol and be worshipped by conforming to this world's standards, i just like listeing to them sing, cause' it's pleasant, but its super sad people are seeking for fame and glory for themselves in such a way, to want to be an idol, i don't know la... have been placed in so many of such situations before esp. in sec sch, so tempting, it still is. But i like performing,(mybe one day some K-competition for some money?hahah! errrr...) and other than with the band, i enjoyed singing for teachers' day acoustic performance..i did it thinking of my teachers only, so it was all good. but thats why i avoid joining sjcidol and what have you, or the gospel singing competition? thats a bit weird to me, and for 2 years i rejected in joining it although being pestered many times by my peers, it was my own self-convictions and beliefs that stopped me, somehow i felt God would not be pleased with me, Singing praises to God is totally subjected to God not for us to judge how well you fair, tht'll just be some ordinary singing competition then... and like i applauded one of the tcher's comments, after this group, like some rock band, God was obviously not in that song at all, and she was like " you call that worship?" just how do you do it without putting God first? There is always some pride in myself when i perform.unless its for a cause or as a group.. It's still something I struggle with; my 'i-told-you-so', 'i-know' attitude...it's so often that i do have that attitude, but i enjoy knowing so...But sometimes, i really DO know , so i just say so, not tryin to brag or come across as being proud...but well. i'm selfish and arrogant, i admit to that.): ok shant dwell on this subject.

toodles in my noodles for your poodles that comes as odles.

gonna do my last minute work: i draw horridly...*low self esteem-ed* i r o n i c.
why do i think of you? Do you think of me fondly?

josh

2007-04-26T23:56:00.000+08:00

foul

2007-04-26T20:59:00.000+08:00

why the bad-mouthing; not only literal aspect of foul language, it's your bullying attitude; talk it out and not let your foolish self over-take your sub-conscious mind. Dont think you are great because you are in numbers, you are just like him, if you think that way. Why dont you be a sensible adult and just tell him since you can't take it? And people are actually agreeing to you cause they dont wanna lose out or be left out... in such a situation and place as this, i dont wanna cave in too...but i think i just did today....disappointed at myself.

Oh i saw TWO people i know on the bus today! (new record in this week alone!)maine & regina, she couldnt recognise me lol. (: i think it's just that bus! (: but i usually dont take it unless it's raining, oh bother. (: i think ill take that bus more often! (:
i feel like a silly highschool min, typing such a shallow entry, but i think it's fun that way (:
Oh thank God that i manage to pull of this week's homework. well, tutor was forgiving (:

*hullacola?!*-- ben&jerrys!
( chingu, can you get that THING for me?)
bogoshipdah!~
and i never seen nats although she's in the same school-school as me! boohoo!~ MGians no life. hahaha.
i wanna go running, or to the gym, argh hate it when school starts so early and ends so late.
bother much.

lol, another of my classmate thought i was half-korean LOL. silly much please... i'm full. LOL!

random picture of wet journey to chingu's house! (: lol. miss you guys (:
love you reader! ~<3yoojeong! (:

krumpled

2007-04-25T18:15:00.000+08:00

i thought i'd like waste my afternoon at today's short mentor-class meeting, but i thinkg it was still so much more interesting than staying home , slacking; major procrasinating, until i feel the serious urgency to do my school work which is due tmr, despite having a slight stress as i continue typing this, to get on with the most prioritised activities. Need to do my Qt too...

but today was fun went with clara after school to j8 to get some art materials, now that ive come to think of it, I FORGOT to get something!! oh no!! GASP!~ ahh.. *now my inspired mood is gone....

speaking of which, yeah was really sorta bummed out when i saw that it was gonna rain, but now im happy that it did, whoosh.( new on my list of interesting Onomatopoeias) :D yeah im crazy, but if i wasnt carrying my leather bag (its been quite a while since i did) i would go home by the long route , just for kicks, erm, i love walking in the rain, its so... inspiring, makes you think... mmm. don't ask. but just 2 entries before i was bloggin on how boring my trips home were, with no coincidental encounters with people i know, and just now,like 20 minutes ago, i saw Daniel! (: didnt notice him before he called me, i was in my "inspired" mode. (thinking of school assignments)perhaps the reason behind me not bumping into anyone is cause i usually take the bus late in the evening? and this morning, i took 70 route to school, which ill not suggest or take it again, it may be a less tiring and tedious route to follow, yet its super uber long to take it! i think i'll stick to my previous long walk route, im sorta getting the hang of it, although the suspense of missing the bus is rather tiresome. (attempting to improve my english language styles by using a wider, more flamboyant, yet commonly utilized vocabulary).

i need to solve some problems, MAJOR problems, and im really wet, drench, cause' despite me taking 3 diff buses to avoid the rain, i still had quite a distance to walk from the bus stop to my home. but i just walked slowly, people think im mad, but i like it.. not the wet leather bag part, but the music in the rain part. hahahaa. and i hope clara's all right with her school problems, I'll pray for you!

ok i gotta go dry up, and listen to music and take a bath and then slowly whallow up in my school work.
*cough sneeze, i think ive already caught a little cold, feeling chilly.

OH my best buy today at the supermarket: 꿀레몬차!!~ can you read that? it's ggulrehmoncha!
a.k.a Honey and Lemon tea! (refer to image: not this brand though) it has slices of real lemon soaked in sweet and zesty honey! you add water and you drink it, it is like that tea Joons wanted to give to his Dad, when he knew he had sore throat, how filial! (: but it's super good, people, im very contented! (: do try! or ill treat you a cup! (: alrights, i need to go now! i hope my week will be exicting like today (:

BTW: i came up with a new pirated brand for a bag ( when fooling around with clara just now! )lol)
Addias=Asadi ( correct?)
LV=VL (lol)
Krumpler= Krumpled (as in. Crumpled)
*does a geeky laughter snort laugh*erm. it was funny then! haha.. imagine wanting to buy a Krumpled bag, oh PUN-ny!~

안녕!~<3 Merissa!!

adieu

2007-04-24T23:36:00.000+08:00

i still remember how we said:

"goodnight, goodnight... "
parting is such sweet sorrow; that i shall say goodnight till' it be morrow...

annyoung~<3yujeong

but sometimes i feel that he only exists in shakesphere; dramas; fairytales;and heartaches.

ADIEU~

training

2007-04-23T22:05:00.000+08:00

i love bounceicles!~ ( go my bro's blog to play!)
chwuah-yo!

its quite funny how ive been starting training even before CCA starts, lol. every morning when i have to rush to school. lol. But the 159 bus stop is not exactly nearby, so to speak. wilfred's like propagating about F.B. so well..i've only signed up for that..mmm.. dunno yet.

I gotta walk pass Ding's home down the slope then through the tennis court ( some oldies really are healthy playing tennis in the morning, lol this guy couldnt get ONE ball and he was like aiyah, so lousy, and laughing. hehe. so cute.), down another small slope ( with annoying construction going on recently, tsktsk) walk futher up and through TaiHwanTerrancePark, then pass the mini sand work-out area, up the stairs , up the slope pass some residential areas, over the over-head bridge, and climb a slope ( quite a distance). but the distance is ok, is just that i usually have to run,brisk walk,( with the thought of not wanting to miss the super low frequency bus) and i have my heavy >3++kg laptop and additional sketchbooks and whathaveyous, and occasional wardrobe malfunction, and it all takes from 15 minutes and today i took about 10! i was determined, haha. haha. rahr, once i had to just suddenly sprint to get the bus, if not ill be late for lecture.it's painful to my un-warmedup calves ok. lol. i practically lugged my huge bag for dear life and ran down the stairs and up the slope when i saw the bus arrive at the bus stop from the top of the bridge, good thing there was this guy who was infront of me who somewhat stalled the bus cause he was chasing after it too. (: Tomorrow's another new day when i'll have to do this again. I think there is seriously many more routes to get to school, but i don't know, im stubborn. I've yet to see anyone from church or school on my way or back from school yet, which is kinna boring, last time i use to bump into some people, which is more interesting, i think shaun is so funny, running for the bus all, ahaha. or talking to his tennis friends loudly at the bus stop. lol.

But really thank God for like keeping me in-time for all of seriously ALL my lectures or tutorials, and like really can tell it's all God's doing. Like how today after tutorial ( which went pretty well, the tutor understood my concept and accepted it pretty fast!-so i could leave early) and it was only drizzling slightly. And although i waited for a little while at the bus stop without my mp3 ( forgot to bring it) and the couple standing next to me gave me the slight chills down my spine with their PA-much ewww. very noisy.. :O!gasp!scandelous much! But i wasnt THAT annoyed, looking away and hoping for the bus to appear, praying that i'll have a safe journey home and entrusted God with that. and the bus came soon after and i found a seat (: and stopped at the 136 bus stop (the skies were dark, didnt wanna take a risk, although God would've held the rain,) and sat for a while and 136 came soon after ( which is pretty rare!) and got to gardens and then 317 came very swiftly ( another rare situation! ) haha.. Thank God! i got home pretty quickly. (: woots. it only started raining when i reached home!

I don't know why people say that after you go into tierchary education, the people seem to be very chinese-ed, and speak plenty of chinese, and minimal english, but it's sorta diff with my class, people who usually speak chinese, speaks english, and i think my pronunciation and language-skills (english) are getting better, lol. and for the first time in my life, lol really, after maths maybe, that i feel a serious challenge in class! wow, i tell you , comm skills push my memory like a pencil carving a marble sculpture. LOL. how can you feel anxiety, nervousness and strain on your braincells at one moment, that time of short questionaire. lol. but my teacher thinks i speak well, ( so she thinks.) it's creepy how she is so observant! lol. she knows what my style of answering is, i skim quickly and looks up at her and paraphase the answer to her. * woooosh*erm a random sound?

i dont believe when people say those who chosed to attend a poly rather than a JC is foolish or silly or lazy, but it's really not, it's challenging, just like JC, although i'd rather not be challenged academically at that level, actually poly has a lot of things needed to be memorised, yet it is more ,not only the theory but the practical aspect/ utility of that information. Even in a design-based course. but sometimes i think back, and pops up the question "what if i choosed to go NYJC-arts AEP instead", or if i studied earlier or harder, and got into a good jc, ( disGUstin always trying to make my guilty for not going SA, BOO!~) but i think, nahh. i guess, i might do ok there, ( nearer to home) but i will just die la in jc. It's all in God's Plan...(: But not saying i'll survive poly either. lol. my competition is strong, please. The pros all gathered in my course, really one kind, ya know? Just trying my own best with God's strength...Jinjjah yo. I miss my korean chingu and songsengnim back in campridgey, when will class start again, im actually looking forward to it (:

well, mmmm.. i love yf!? hahah.. melissa's random bug got me, *cough, hahaha..
*clears throat* i think im getting a lil' sickly mmm.. erm. i need to do my sketches, mmm..
and this entry was very Minmin the highschoolboy version, please! hoho!!
i miss church already! (:

lol. YD was super funny and very disgressed-much. talking about a very cute topic, i hope geraldine doesnt steal my future bf. HAHAH. erm. vice versa. *screams POLO!chubbs* :X hahahee.
But it's really up to God, yea? as ape's wrote in her blog too (:
~i've bid you adieu.

안냥~<3유정

floorball

2007-04-19T01:57:00.000+08:00

floorball!!!!
(eh?)
nat, wongwong&aver joined floorball with me, yes that's what im gonna say in the future...
i hope. (:
AHAHHA!~ermm.. please?
since no one wanna join taekwondo or join touchrugby with me, rahr.
floorball try mmm, kamsahapnida!(:
feel the peerpressure!!~, you be square if you dont suffer with me, huunehchm? LOL
so many CCAs which one?!
cheryl dont be toot and join bowling, dont care HAHAH!(not implying bowling is 'toot' yet it's wongwong who said the people in it are well, toot-ish, although i personally dont believe in judging a book from it's cover, although i tend to. they are nice people but cheryl, natty, rilril, youll have more nice ppl if you join floorball. or touchrugby, LOL. eh? oh bother.

-go join your dragonboating,kayakin with your hot guys la! :o

*btw: im using my new (first) laptop! (: alright-- adieu. anyoung~